$10 of Milk Chocolate Bullets from David Jones.

My tooth aches, so does my knee & my mouth. I am getting a coldsore or 15 & I am in my body which makes me sadder than when I am out of my body and just watching.

Mmmm...............

Today has been interesting & informative- we were blessed again to have Robert Young guest speak at the Cottage & what a wonderful afternoon it was.
A great group, the right mixture of humour & respect & really cool food made for a fun 3 hours of spiritual learning & sharing.

Started today with a phone call to my cousin Cyndy and a reading at the Lunar Goddess in Medowie - poor JoJo had a tooth ache as well & left to go to the dentist before I had finshed my reading- still, the reading went well & if my dentist wasnt in Europe, Id be going to see him as well.

Prue is up at Mattasaurus Rex's house even though they are not together- Josh has been making paper mache & is currently watching a video with Marc who really has had enough of the poodle & its pissy little puddles.

Also, the poodle has taken to trying to have sex with Shibby our silky bantim chicken & this CANT be good for anyone concerned - especially since Shib goes all submissive and lets him go. In truth, he thinks she is just a big fluffy stuffed toy but he doesnt realise that sex without the chickens permission is not on- NO means NO & all that stuff........................the poodle is aging me, I am about to turn 57 I think.

Robert was great today & helped everyone present to understand a bit more of their paths & purpose. He is also incredibly validating of my work with Michael as he repeats alot of the same information.

Food is evil in alot of ways. You get hungry then overeat then feel fat & bloated then blame food........mmm.....works for me.

On My MinD Tonight :

• William - when will he learn NOT to piddle inside ?
• family- ups & downs- knowing my limits in regards to carrying & supporting
• my knee, why is it aching so much?
• housework- it waits for you...........
• my mothers shock confessions about her sex life last night
• my sister & I needing to be fitted for straight jackets
• pasta- why I shouldnt eat it & why I still do
• bra's- I have had one on all day
• fear- of what ? not knowing doesnt help......
• are we all aliens?
• why does all subway taste the same?
• joining a few other tribes again, but which ones?
• Mary
• the piece of flourite I lost in my car today
• marc being cranky because of william
• prues hair
• joshua being a cheeky little snit at tea......
• the book i am reading & going to bed to finish it tonight
• tarot-looking again through the eyes of wisdom.
• crying- it might help me feel better
• Jesus/the bible- 'when ever there are two or more of you together in my name, there I shall be'
• tooth ache & coldsores
• thinking of combining all three of my names-Elizabeth, Lisa & Raihn & calling myself 'Laihnabeth'
• $10 worth of David Jones Milk Chocolate bullets
• Goji- selling well- wish more people would open to the great opportunity that comes from selling this stuff
• the identity of Shergar- Yes, I know who he is.........
• why we all need to drive on the road less travelled occasionally
• Joshua being indignet because Will was trying to bonk Shibby- what is it about it that bothers you so much i ask- shes a chicken, you dont do that to a chicken comes the toothpaste laden reply- honey, you eat chicken says I, the voice of reason- not our chicken splutters toothpaste boy, only chicken I have never seen or known.
• MMMM.......the motto of that story ? You better get to know Josh or he will eat you.

Blessed be.

I am that I am-

something about this picture I love

My Soul Key Symbol

As per Michael Message of the 27/9/06 .
My access key to the new healing energies.

Blessed Be.........E x
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Friday Night

• need to go to bed- a big day for me- need sleep
• am reading a book loaned to me by my up duff niece Kristy called 'the bride stripped bare' and i have to tell you, it really has me in
• had tea tonight with assorted female family members as we do every 3 months- strange atmosphere- a lot of sadness - lots going on
• had lunch with Lea & Lesley & Josh at the Brewery
• need to sleep- my legs ache & I have an ulcer inside my mouth & a coldsore starting- yuk- if i ever meet the person who infected me with coldsore virus I will throttle them- talk about the gift that keeps on giving.
• reading at Medowie tomorrow then Robert Young at Saturday Afternoon Circle at the Cottage.
• Marc is very angry- Will peed on the floor in our room & guess who trod in it- Guess who then went on to call Will assorted colourful names & descriptions before heading back into the shower. I am hiding up stairs until calm descends. guess who should be asleep very soon.
• got a bargin on little mirror balls today - 12 for 50c - wow- dont know what i will do with them but will find something.....
• slow week reading wise but thats ok- have been praying alot & receiving a lot of validation and confirmation
• had a moment tonight where I got scared- really scared- I felt fear of the unknown, fear of always feeling uncertain & fear of never living my truth. It was a moment & it passed but it scared me _ i dont want to be this up & down for the rest of my life- it exhausts me- life should be easier.
• i think, therefore I ache- I know.
• does the past ever fade really ? do we ever stop looking up & thinking we see someone we used to know?
• like I said, im tired- and overfed- eating lunch is unusual for me & should have been the only meal for today however I had tea to get through as well- had a caesar salad for tea but only ate half- bloated & full- nauseatingly so.
• its been a big night emotion wise- some one I love very much is in pain- I am carrying that,I cant not- I feel, I love & therefore I hurt

sleep well...........blessed be

E x

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Sensitising a Desensitised World.

I am always the first one to worry that we are far too desensitised at this time on this planet.
I feel we are far too accepting of the pain in this world and have become in our acceptance, hardened to what we see as the inevidebility of it.

I was shocked to the foundations the other night to be caught watching the 6pm news ( not something I ever do) when a story of such horrific proportions, that I just couldnt believe came on.
It had all the makings of a horror story & yet it was real- 3 children murdered & stuffed into a washing machine & drier- their mother murdered & her seven month old fetus cut from her womb with kitchen scissors.
It was horrific, all the more so because it was real but, even worse for me was that as i sat in astounded silence listening to this story, both Marc & Josh , also in the room, continued on in conversation as if nothing had been said.

It occured to me then, with stunning verosity, just how desensitised we have become in this world- when a story so graphically horrific can fail to reach us, to shake our foundations, we have to wonder about the state of the universal conciousness.

Now for me, I am probably not a great one to talk because for the longest time now my way of dealing with this sort of world pain has been avoidance.
Truthfully, I live in a bubble. It is a joke in our house- when ever anything gets too hard or harsh, husband, kids & dogs all shout 'lisa, bubble'.
A long time ago I realised that news, newspapers, radios etc - the things that A/A Michael calls'media energy' have a profoundly negetive effect on me & that in my life, were best avoided.
Marc has always told me this is me denying/avoiding reality, however I have chosen to see it more as self presevation than anything else- the perfect example being that story on the news on Tuesday night- I listened & I heard & I havent had a full nights sleep since.

I dont see me as avoiding the reality of the world, I grew up in an all too real world-the years of my young life up to nine years of age were full of all the stuff of nightmares-stuff that no young child should ever have to be subjected too- i know the reality of the world & of human nature & I know that for me, protection from media energy is a positive part of my growth & living.

Am i desensitised ? No- more accurate would be to label me 'over sensitised in self protection mode'

Desensitised to me is when we can watch , listen, hear & not react or not feel. Desensitised is when we accept with out comment or without challenge- when we shrug & walk away.

Its a fine line I know and it blurs, it blurs...............

The perfect example of the blur and of what I see as the 'light of hope for humanity' is in so many ways, the death of Steve Irwin.
The global response to the death of Steve, to the plight of his family & his causes has in many ways, been a reason to celebrate the fact that as a global community, we can all still feel.

In so many ways I believe the death of this man has done as much to unite a world as the life of him ever did.
People felt his loss- they felt the pain of Terri & of the children- people are talking about him & his achievements, they are recognising his loss- people, the world over, are sensiting again- feeling again singulary & as a global community- and from where I stand, this has a got to be a good thing.

My son who continues to play guitar while listening to the horrors of mass murder, sits & cries while watching Terri Irwin speak of her first walk with the crocodiles on her own.

I have watched over the last few weeks the change in attitudes with many of the people in my groups as they deal with the loss of this man as if it is a loss of a family member.

And indeed it is- Steve Irwin was a part of our Global Family- he was someone we all knew & love him or hate him, he was someone who made a difference.
We are right to mourn his passing, we are right to be open to the loss of him & to the sorrow of his family, but in mourning him, we should also pay him respect & say thankyou ,because his giving to this world did not end with his death- even his death has bought positive change- people are feeling- and with feeling comes change & action & in our world , at this time, this is so very needed.

So, it brings me back to the blur in the line of being desensitised; I have had to realise in the last few days that maybe our world is not as desensitised as i had imagined- that maybe different people cope with horror & different ways & that by continuing to play guitar,talk & laugh through atrocious news bulletins isnt a crime- it is in its own way, another form of the' bubble of self protection'- it is the equivilent to my 'avoidance' only others can avoid while being present.

The stuff, the news, the things that need to get through our barriers, GETS THROUGH. Steve got through, Diana got through, 9/11 got through - the real stuff that enables us to grow as a planet, as a community, GETS THROUGH and in this we ( I ) must trust.

Maybe I am rambling, but I needed to express my feelings on this - on the gratitude I feel towards the man known to us as Steve Irwin both personally & on a world scale.

Personally, i thought he was a crazy man - far too 'out doorsy' for my refined ( boring) tastes- but I appreciated his work, I loved the way he loved those kids & his wife and everything he did in his capacity as a earth guardian/healer. I respected him, i still do.
As death always does, it brings to the fore different aspects of the person lost- different strengths & weaknesses -its also impacts on the survivors and raises the bar for new levels of expectations.

The thing I will always be grateful to Mr Irwin for, is that in death he has shown me that I have been mistaken in my accepted view of 'a world desensitised' & has given me the chance to relook at my thoughts & opinions through the eyes of wisdom.

Maybe we are not desensitised after all- maybe we are all 'over sensitised in self protection mode' ?

These are my thoughts anyway.......& i wanted to share...............

I am that I am- growing & learning each day

E x

ps......... alot of people have contacted me regarding the spiritual aspects of Steve Irwins life & death- from what information I have been given, I beleive he was & is the most recent incarnation of a powerful master. I do have my suspicions butowuld need further clarity before I announce them to the world. One thing I do know- he chose his birth, his parents, his life & he chose his death- on a very deep level, he KNEW his contracted period was up & he chose a death that would mirror the uniquness of his life. A huge part of his contract was the bringing in of the souls known as his children. He has been with Terri in many lifetimes & will be again. there is more to this, and I am seeking further understanding- then i will share as needed. E x

gRumblings in the House

Well, the hoardes are restless & full of attitude tonight....
Smart ass men- husband & son- painful.

Well today was today & tomorrow will be tomorrow I suppose......

School holidays start officially tomorrow but the little man with attitude aka stick man has already informed me that no one goes tomorrow & he is not getting out of bed. Fine....stay in bed, having already lived through the high school years with Madame Prue, I 'll save my breathe & wait until there is a discussion I stand a chance of winning.

Chance would be a fine thing............

Smart ass husband & son arrive home after tea at Mother in laws telling me of a australian blog called 'sam in the city' that gets 8000 + hits a day- they think this is hysterical as I often brag that my blog gets around 100 per day. So being the terrible loser that I am , I go to 'sam in the city ' to see just what she has that me and the RCR dont.

well, I think a little thing like being backed by Fairfax might help, smart ass husband & stick boy didnt mention that totally irrelvant little detail - also she sees to be cnnected to one of the major tv stations & yadda, yadda, yadda...............

I tell you, not one soppy poem or archangel message in sight & certainly no smilies, humping or not............3 minutes I lasted, 3 minutes.......... thats it.................

Told you Im a sore loser.

Have been giving the pee-oodle test runs with his harness on & walking on the lead. He looks like a little bondage victim all trussed up and tries to eat the lead. Distinct advantage of small dog is that when he wont walk you can lift or better still, drag- these things are not an option with the blonde lab-adore who i have strong memeories of cursin every time I tried to walk her & she just thought 'uh,uh.............not going'

Mmm.....life with dogs...........interesting.............life with crystals..........interesting.

Do you know that cup of soup is actually quite acceptable these days ? Well the one i just had was ok- hearty minestrone with 4 corn kernals & 3 peas - it actually tasted nice- not at all like minestrone soup but nice anyway.

Forgot to eat again today hence the cup of soup- tomorow will be different- lunch with the gorgeous Mrs Harris at the Crown & Anchor at 12 followed by a quick shop & some banking, a snooze & out for tea with the WOTAC group to celebrate being US.

Our gift theme for tomorrow night is to buy something to the value of $10 that you would love to keep yourself.........mmmm.....this could be interesting.............I can just imagine the Old Aunties ( or even worse Mother Bear) opening a gift of something I would like to keep for myself........actually, this calls for a list........gifts under $10 that I would like to keep for myself include

1. something out of the bargain basket at naughty & nice
2. a bottle of frankincence perfume oil
3. a mugwort plant
4. 1kg bag of m&m's
5. incense
6. candles
7. striped socks
8. something from the catholic emporium
9. a manifestation cord
10. crystals

Actually, have been a busy girl this afternoon doing some spell craft & craft craft, while trying to answer the 15 or more bloody phone calls that came in - there has got to a be condition that affects the fingers from too much texting.............

Anyway, have attached an image of my latest manifestation cord & the new Goddess anklet I made for myself this afternoon.

I love experimenting with different little ideas that we can then use during full moon or group activities- the Goddess anklet is a certaintly for next full moon.

Anyways..........the Footy Show has started and i cant stand the sound of Fatty Vautin so I am heading off to bed. There is no chocolate in this house anywhere and I am about to go a little out of my mind. Actually I feel like going for a walk but husband would freak if i said that at this time of the night.

Smells..............lately my sense of smell has been acute, and i mean ACUTE. Two nights ago i was woken up by a smell that i couldnt pin down to anything- it is not a pleasant smell yet strangly not unpleasant either & its not just that one, there are two- one smells an awful lot like cigarette smoke but the other is strange & they come upon me at the strangest times. Like I said, this odour woke me the other night & I lay there in bed trying to pin it down but I couldnt. There is something happening here but its new to me and I dont know what it is...any thoughts?

I off over to tribe before bed, husband is yelling at poodle who has an annoying habit of peeing at the back door which then makes hosing a nessecity............

oh dear, life..........life...............life.............

E x

Michael Speaks - Archangel Michael through Elizabeth (Raihn). 28/9/2006

I am Michael.
I attend. I am.

Be still and be open to knowing that where all is at once chaos all too at once has purpose & outcome.
Knowing as you do of greater achievements takes not away from what work with which you occupy all time & space now.(?)

This is truth and although this to you may seem of little sense I tell you children, work with what is at hand and accept that all is right in this world.

Acknowledge the words of those around who seek to inspire & open to new realms- all is possible at this time.

Know with absolute cetainty that all possible achievement upon this earth is maintained at this time.
Ascention levels have risen, molecular structure variences occurs.
Know it to be truth that no one soul upon this earth is immune to the changes that have occured ;all have moved forward ;all have embraced light in one fashion or another.

The Great Mother swings in a state of limbo at this time awaiting the next contraction of turbulance to hit & overwhelm - know this is necessity & cleansing- know this is needed at this time- water must be poured into a clean cup.

To many at this time life seems frantic and I acknowledge the physical hardship that ascention can cause.
I tell all now to not live in a time of wondering - 'where do i go?' rather to live in a time of embracing 'I can go anywhere I want to'......
All is possible now, all within the realms of new opportunity - life is no longer the planning it is the activation of the plans-reach inside and ask of your inner heart- 'what makes me happy?' 'for what do i have a life passion?'
Know this to be truth as it is my child- know this to be growth most profound..

For in truth now all have the ability to earth heal with the palms of each hand - no longer are the man made rules & attunements to universal energy a nessecity -ALL have access to universal symbology & knowledge- the results of all ascention processes has opened and reactivated the ancient channel for universal light- no longer is the giving of this gift a man made nor controlled thing and those who would seek to address otherwise do so in fear of loss- this is not a truth- healing is in all.

Of your higher aspects I ask you to go inward and ask for your' key'- your own individiual activating symbol- all have this symbol embedded within the aura corona - to access each souls master symbol one need only ask & it will be presented- work with this symbol- many already have this in their knowing, work with this symbol & breathe life into in- know it & all healing centres within the physical body will be come reactiveted; know this is truth most high- it is time for all to use the universal healing.

This is energy most pure, most profound: the energy afforded Great Masters during incarnate periods upon this earth.

The energy of the Great Mother divine female principal as manifest as 'amma' or to you in life 'Mother Mary' is indeed active at this time - she encourages all to work with the symbol of the intent to heal- to ask to be shown & to take what is given- she will confirm your arrival at the correct conclusion. Look at the stance given to Amma by man - notice the palms- this is her message at this time-hands, and healing.
After the master symbol for each soul is retrieved, many more will begin to arrive, to be downloaded as is appropriete for you- these symbols of soul are multi layered, multi functional - there use is reactivation of profound truth.
The Mother assists- spiritual entites of all descriptions are now obvious, allowing for easy mergance with new energy. Be OPEN.

Enough, there is more to be said but allowance for absorbion must be given.

Dear Raihn child, be true to the path for which you were chosen- acknowledge this truth and embrace the complexitiies which appear to make up your living life.

All is well & in truth has always been so.

I am Michael- work with me
I am
Amorist.

Thursday Morning Questions

1. if pumpkin face ( prue) & matt-a -saurus- rex ( matt) are not together, then why are they always together ?
2. who keeps overloading my washing machine ?
3. why does the cottage look more untidy at 11pm than it does at 7am?
4. why does josh talk on messenger wearing a hat & sunglasses?
5. if i wear a dress with an uneven hem line can I get away with shaving only one leg?
6. who is that poodle?
7. has anyone invented self making beds yet?
8. is there a name for children of witches?
9. if black is the absense of colour & white is the complete colour spectrum- then everything really is, in fact, black & white, or black or white, or just black, or just white ..........isnt it?
10. how can there be so many religions when there is only one God?
11. why does Ray Martin get to interview all the 'hot' people?
12. do people honestly believe that potato peel left in the kitchen plug hole will remove itself?
13. did I send my cousin Jenni Mac an email saying I would be a WOTAC tomorrow night?
14. why do we smell worse as we get older?
15. did you know there is a Goddess in every apple?
16. who would have ever thought of storing crystals in your vagina? ( gives a whole new meaning to 'crystal cave' doesnt it ?)
17. how do you get them out ? ( actually, forget that, at my age, they will probably fall out!)
18. when the convict women were transported to Australia on those bloody awful death ships, they were well known for stuffing any prized possessions into their vaginas for safe keeping - they called this their 'cunny kit'. ( not a question I know, but a very interesting piece of factual information)
19. why are there four coasters up here on my computer desk & no cups of coffee
20. If all is as it must be, then why arent we told why it must be?
21. if aliens abduct us ( for whatever reason) and mess with our minds and then say that they werent messing with our minds but merely programming us to receive their guidance, then why do they need to abduct us to do that ? Isnt that invasion of free will? what if we dont want to be programmed by alians?
22. why am I frowning ?
23. do you think maybe Jackson Browne, the poodle, Anchell & I had a past life together?
24. how come when i was 16, someone who was 27 seemed old and now I am 43 I still see myself as a young woman?
25. why are there so many Michaels in my life ?

E xx

'I am that I am'

which celtic deity are you ?

quiz.myyearbook.com/zenhex/quiz.php

a bit of fun...........

I am the Triple Goddess - but you knew that, didnt you ?

Monika, Crystals, Cottage Life, Letting Go, William, Donations & Solara's Zyocactus Remedy

A busy night.
Monika the crystal lady extrordinaire at the Cottage- a packed house - with about 4 or 5 new faces.

The RCR were out in force & also the return of our Divine new Mother Helen, ( without baby Archie who was having some serious Dad time).

The understatement of the year would have to be that there were LOTS of crystals- amazing crystals with many of our group taking the opportunity to purchase a donation for the new crystal room.

Monika donated a beautiful , large piece of ( something ?) ( I will find out) & lots of little tumble stones.

A good night but a late one & as is usual with me after Circle, I am totally wound up & so will blog until my eyes fall out.

Young Will was once again out in force, stealing crystals & pens- I thought poor little Shann-j-Panni was going to have a fit when he took off with one of her new crystals. You see, being a Witch's familiar, Will is quite at home with crystals & plays with mine often- tonight he just didnt understand the distinction between mine & Monika's so I had to keep a close eye on him.

I bought a beautiful honey calcite wand, a large selenite wand, a crysathumum stone - really gorgeous & a small piece of petrified wood to use on my mouse arm & Marcs dicky knee.

A good night, an enjoyable night............all is well.

Tonight also saw three of our RCR's sign onto the Goji train with Renata & I , so that was very good as well.

I havent eaten much today- appetite is a bit down of late, still am keeping up fluids & Goji so am sure all is ok.

Have been taking a special flower essence made by the darling Solara, called Zyocactus. It is potent stuff & works in a subtle fashion ( and not so subtle!) to help you clear away a lot of unneeded stuff & return you to the path you are contracted to follow. It has a very feminine quality and feel about it & I attribute alot of my ongoing change to the potency of this essence.

I will get solara's web details on here for anyone with an interest.

So.....the bra is off, so are the shoes, the earrings & the jewellery.

The house is asleep- quiet- my favourite time of the night ' can you feel the serenity?' - actually, yes I can.

Unfortunately, I can also smell mouldy old witch so i guess its time for me to drag my large weary ass downstairs for a shower before retiring to read for the night.

I ve been thinking a lot lately about 'stuff'- you know, just 'stuff' like "when did our kids become so desensitised to violance?'' "who invented cochroaches?" " how did i survive the last 2 years of my life?" " why cant I buy a dark skinned Mother Mary?"and "does anyone really read my blog?"

Little stuff maybe, but there on my mind anyway.

Michael is about and there will be a message soon.

Tomorrow will be hard for me - tomorrow I need to part with something that i felt was mine forever -something I love intensly from someone I love with all my heart- it will be hard to let it go, and I dont want to, I dont want to.

Its kind of like the final step in a long drawn out cycle and I know it needs to be done, but I also know the strength it requires & the pain I will feel. I also dont want to let go of hope, and in effect, that is what I will be doing- admitting to myself, that there is no more hope, nothing more I can say or do to make this right. I am so sad about this, about the lost dreams.

Yes, tomorrow will be hard for me.

I am that I am, and that is all- that will have to be enough

E x

Stepping Back.

The brain of this girl is in a muddle.
Too much information- overload.
I am stepping back for a while - i need to, or i will go crazy.
My Blue Star work is on hold until after Summer Solstice- I keep hitting walls with it & the feedback/input I require to keep it moving- to be honest, its zapping my strength at this time and It is strength i can not afford to have zapped. A break & then a fresh start.

Readings. Where do i start? when I am good, i am very, very good & when I am bad I am horrid. Sometimes, the connection IS JUST NOT THERE and I find it difficult to read anything of substance at all. This is hard, expecially when you know you have the ability to help people, but when it comes down to it, you need to be honest with yourself and my honesty is telling me i am not giving quality.
This happens. It has happened to me before & will happen again. A breather- that is all i need, some guidance, some perspective, all will be well.

Im not yet ready to make the leap to out- of -space & aliens as forms of Divine Beings just yet. A part of my brain ( logical lisa) tells me 'yes' it all fits in, all makes sense, all is where it is needed to be & yet another part,( realistic raihn) says 'slow down- you havent figured THIS out yet, why complicate it more?' and at this stage, I have to go with RR.
I KNOW in my very cells there is more out there, I feel it , sense it, know it but I also know that at this time, it is not part of my field of learning.

I am Earth, I am here, I am Witch- Daughter of the Goddess, Gaia/Maryam/Bridget. My work at this time is about EARTH our GREAT MOTHER and to step away from that will see me lost & confused as we all are when we step off our true path.

In my belief system, I see myself like a child in many aspects, trying on Mum's clothing & parading in front of the mirror.
Trying things on that looks so lovely only to realise that they dont fit or dont feel right- yet also acknowledging that in time, i will grow & in time , these clothes will be a better fit & sit more comforatably.

I am going back to basics. To Raihn. To doing what I LOVE doing so much & that is being a witch & working with people in a spiritual guidance capacity. Sharing what I know- helping others on the path to inner peace & spiritual understanding. i do this well- not ego, just fact- I have an ability to help people understand & this is what I am being prompted to return to. To writing from my soul.

The opening sentance of my last Michael message has gained massive clarity for me in recent days- 'come back to me raihn'- this is what He said ' come back to me' and now I know what He meant.
Stay true to my path, to my earth work & spiritual guidance work- my MICHAEL work- stay grounded in my own form of reality & that in truth my reality does differ to others- my reality is not what others would consider real, thats why its mine & mine alone. As yours is yours, and yours alone.

Yes, I worry about the mundane stuff- about money and about paying the bills. While I do readings I earn money, simple- when I dont, I dont, its that simple. But so is my faith, simple yet complex and I just KNOW that all will be well.
My cottage will survive & continue to grow- financial security will come, one way or another.
I TRUST.

So, this is me at the moment- the same but different- different but the same- gaining clarity, seeing the light, going back to Michael, to Mary, to my true path- to the Mother, Gaia.

Amazing how a change in one aspect of your life can & does resonate through all other aspects of your life.
Over the last couple of years, I have always had my friend Paul who supplied that 'voice of reason'- who had that incredible knack of helping me see things 'as they were'- quickly,clearly & precisily and as we all know, that process of clear & pricise sight is not always what we want to see or hear. It can be hard,harsh, but it is so necessary. I will be forever grateful to him for the support & guidance he gave me on my path by' just being'
Over the last 12 months, our paths/lives have gone in seperate directions and it has taken me a while to re-establish my own ability to 'see things clearly'. But it is happening & it is where i am at now.

Clear sight.
Clear thinking.
As Renata says to me' walk the walk'
I am
I am back.

Once again the mad ramblings of a hormanal hag- thank you for reading

I am that I am - so are you.

Marc tells me constantly -' do what you want to do' - how blessed i am.

Ex

Kidz Alive, Jackson Browne, Cellulite,Underarm Fertiliser & Shoe- Humping Poodles Pups

Well, we had our first 'kidzalive' meeting at the Cottage tonight & even though there were less than expected in attendance, it was still a good, informative night for all.

Kidzalive Newcastle will be using Rose Cottage as its base and has the lovely Karen Brown as its Newcastle Facilitator...........You will be hearing alot more from me about Kidz Alive as this project starts to grow & flourish.

My day improved, no doubt due to the love & support sent to me by my army of friends & sisters out there......thank you...........this weblog is the best thing in the world for sad days because there is always someone to share with.

William was quite the little upstart at the kidsalive meeting tonight, growling life a grizzly bear ( do you remember that movie ?) and trying to poodle hump everyones legs & shoes- just a tad embarrassing, thats for certain.

I havent really seen my kids today at all , nor Marc for that matter as I needed to be at the Cottage from 4pm & have really only just arrived home. Everyone is asleep, except me.

Thought I would share my latest listening pleasure- Jackson Brownes solo accoustic volume 1-fabulous music, singing, everything- brilliant. Marc & I actually saw him in concert a few years back during one of his solo accoustic tours- he was astounding.

Feeling a bit fat & creased tonight - you know the feeling, like you need a good wash and an iron. My face looks a bit like a base ball mit & from squinting the full stops have almost disappeared. There are bulges where there shouldnt be bulges & hair where there definatly should not be hair but at least I am wearing a bra & even went to the trouble of earrings for tonight meeting.

Why do legs look like they do with cellulite ? The top of my legs is like sponge & I dont mean cake- yuk- and the veins everywhere- my goodness we become unattractive as we age, dont we ? Every single part of your body decides at age 40 to 'do its own thing' totally independant to what the rest of your body is doing- hair goes gray, legs ache, teeth go from off white to seriously off, off white, skin develops a snake like quality, eyes sink & eyelids try to smother them.........toes crack & hair goes ballistic.

Personally, i beleive underarm deodorant acts as fertiliser for your pits as I notice that the hair under my arms grows again before I have even towelled off after the shower. It doesnt explain the legs though- boy are they hairy - thank god i dont catch buses because if i ran for one I would probably self combust.

Anyway, its snooze time - tomorrow is Wednesday, always a biggy at the Cottage- hopefully , the worst of the gloomy day is over & tomorrow will see me bursting with life & joy again ( come on, I did once!!)

til then, be happy, embrace who you are & manifest who you want to be

E x

All Actions & Non Actions Have A Reaction........

oh dear, oh dear.......

In the last 10 days I have somehow managed to forget to take two of my depression tablets .
This has happened both times on a Saturday morning probably due to the fact that Saturday mornings are SO out of the norm for me & if I lose my routine then i am lost.

Anyway, the fact that my levels are obviously down is apparent today & I have woken from a dark, sad dream to find my self in a dark, sad place.

I know it will pass. I know. It always does.
But for now, its dark & Im a bit lost.

Dreaming of the past, even the recent past , has me in a bit of turmoil.

We work so hard to release then when we are most vunerable, it grabs us again.
Is this the lesson ? I dont know.

I am wearing my pink dress in an effort to allivate pain & induce self love & I am just glad that my breakfast date with Anchell & her darlin was yesterday & not today because I would have cancelled, I would have had to.

The Cottage is empty today, until about 4.30pm when I will don the mask & make pleasant, as we have a crownd arriving for a meeting tonight & the co-ordinator from that group is sleeping over, so I need to get myself together eneough to go over, air out & clean up the bathroom so that is presentable.

Until then, I will hide.

Crawl back into bed when the little man leaves for school & try to sleep this yuk away. It will help, I know that from experience, it will help.

So does prayer.

The house is a mess which doesnt help & I feel frail although i know I am not.

My head hurts, so does my heart.

Last night before sleep I received a very strong message of angelic guidance about clearing out clutter- putting somethings on hold, throwing somethings away.........
This was spiritual advice & at the time made so much sense- it probably still does but I am not a good one to judge this morning.

I have eased back so much on readings, as in truth, they are not a comfort or a source of pleasure to me anymore -I dont feel the connection I used to & i suffer dreadfully with 'imposter syndrome'.
I know from previous experience that this will pass, it has before however, I also know that when this happens, it happens for a reason & to acknowledge & respect it.
Also, my blue star work is going on hold for a while- certainly not stopping but being moved to the back for a while- it has been full on & to be honest, I need a breather & some distance to regain perspective.

They ( Angels)have told me to do what I love doing- push it to the front & this is what I am focusing on now for the next few months.

I love to help, to teach, to guide and this is where I am at this time ( though certainly not today) my spiritual guidance & support work & my healing work have kind of fallen back into the pit of late & its time to re-pull them out, dust them off & give them a good hard look through the eyes of wisdom. Maybe I need to make some changes & maybe I dont I will let you know.

For now I want to concentrate on establishing my 'Angelic Raihn' healing modality & re-establishing my one on one work- I LOVE this stuff & I LOVE working by donation. it so many ways it is more real than another work- more true- to me at least.

One thing I know for certain is the the Witch in me is stronger than ever. The aspect of me that works up close with the female Divine has never been stronger, never.

I am lookinga t the whole witchcraft/goddess worship thing from a deeper , aspect & finding the truth that lies in there for me.

The book that I have recently read about MARY by Lesley HAzelton has blown my mind & many of my preconcieved ideas & beleifs- in so many ways it has FREED me from restrictions of the past whether they were self imposed or not.

This book brings MARY to life, it makes her real & true- it gives her emotions & humour- it shows her for what she was & what she is today- AMMA- Mother- Wise one- MARYAM.

It has changed a fundamental part of me & I need to work with this & with bringing through that energy to my work.

Anyway, enough.

Some more sleep, some high vibration food, half a bottle of Goji, & a smile is what my body & soul requires this Tuesday morning.

I will talk with you later on.

I am ok, just down.

I am that I am ( even today) and this too shall pass.

Blessed Be

Elizabeth x

Me....Tonight...........

• washing
• sore arm
• feeling full
• tired
• quiet
• dirty feet
• messy hair
• new bracelet
• cup of tea
• clean sheets
• aching neck
• tired husband
• barking dogs
• money concerns
• snake skin
• new mary statue
• new book to read
• blocked nose
• too much coffee
• sleepy
• untidy
• sick of tv noise
• tired of blogging
• need to clean teeth
• worried
• thinking
• planning
• awaiting confirmation
• praying
• going now........

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Some Things I Want to Know.

1. Why are we supposed to love & worship a God whom we are also expected to fear?
2. If we are all God's children, could this be what Jesus meant when he called God 'Father'?
3. Do people still take the Bible literally?
4. Why does the figure of '40 days' show up so very often?
5. what is the signifigance of 40?
6. why dont any statues of Mary have dark skin ?

Message of Love & Confirmation 25/9/06

I believe this may be a message from my higher aspect of self, however, i dont know for sure.

It came through this morning, unannouced & as I do, I wrote word for word. The Goddess is alive & thriving, which ever aspect you choose to see. Maybe this message holds something for you as well.

I am feeling very loved & blessed.

I welcome ALL comments & feedback.

E x

Beloved, be as one with the complete union of your soul.
Know this is as it is and take this moment as no more or no less than
what it means to you.

Ask always, 'what am i to learn from this' and then annoucne your intention
to the world...allow growth dear one. Most beloved.

Ambush of emotions is a true thing.
Overwhelming life on this path may seem to be yet in the truest sense life
with faith is simple.

Dedicate to something and explore -far too much skimming over in the
earth realm which is impatient for knowledge & growth- to grow, one must
grow into- a way of life, a thought , a being- allow this then and be as you
are..

Letting go of those issues directly relating to your unhappiness is a step
forward- expect however the challenges.

The sun continues to shine, does it not- the sun, watches over the world as
you know it and the worlds unknown to you - all is well beloved- all is
well.

Many mouths now sing the praise of She who is all, She who is known by many
names and yet to most remains but a face- nameless.

The world arrives at a new period of acceptance and growth about the role
afforded to She and in this , the growth most profound is established.

Awaken to the knowledge that all She touches will grow- this is
truth and as all Mothers, you are nurtured and cared for as Her own.....be
with this, allow this to happen- names are merely titles for aspects of
something plain-acknowledge this & live by the rules of She who is
all. Become a healer, teacher, wise one- open to & grow into the power
of She that resided in the soul essence of all.

Beloved, how hard you struggle to understand concepts of a man made
kind & i tell you now, this is not time & your energy thrown towards
understanding interpretations of earth souls is wasted energy.
Energy will always create energy as you are aware- energy put into trying
to understand something that in truth, has no understanding avialable to you is
the creater of frustation & disillusionment.

Ego intervenes- move past this.

Open through the crown but stay grounded in the world in which you serve
this time.
Grow & be as you need to be. Your lessons are here &
now.

She watches, She waits- you are a daughter of She & in her your faith
is sound.

move forward.............commence on the path She has set for you-allow Her
to work in you.

Stay open.

Beloved.

Interesting Sites & Blogs........

www.marylife.org

http://foodheal.blogspot.com/

http://dietingfortummies.blogspot.com/

Another Day In Paradise........

phew.........a hot day............one day over the Spring Equinox & already the temperature is pushing 35 degrees...............

I slept in this morning as planned but that was about all that went according to plan. I woke about 9.30am & unable to all back to sleep ( marc vaccumming the bedroom floor wasnt conductive to nodding off again) decided to grab a coffee ( one real coffee per day) and sit in bed & read for a while.........

This was actually a great success & I managed to get through a great deal of the book i am reading about MARY- a wonderful book- will talk more about in the next few days. It is an eyeopener, thats for sure & even more important than opening eyes, it opens minds, which is something i am in desperate need of right now.

Marc attended an end of year football BBQ for a couple of hours & i read, quite oblivious to the heat & wind.

Eventually, though, i did need to get up & shower etc........

Prue & Matt were here & Josh was upstairs nearly all day making videos of himself. I know that kid has so much homework to do but honestly, the time has come for marc & I to set some boundries on the amount of prompting we give him.

He KNOWS it is there, he KNOWS it has to be done & he KNOWS he is leaving it to the last minute. At almost 14, he is old enough to be able to manage his time enough to assure homework & assignments are done.
I just know that in the morning there will be a performance of some sort because he hasnt done his work and honestly, I am so over it with Josh. Over the next few years he is only going to get more homework & assignments & by us carrying him now, we are truly doing him or us no favours at all................

My other son, Sweet William the pee-oodle, actually had a bit of a trim today as he was looking a bit second hand & hot & sweaty- now he looks still a bit rugged but cooler..........I have decided i will be one of those poodle mothers that will need to get him clipped every few weeks over summer because I just cant stand to see him so hot. Poor old Rube- she just drags her gorgeous blonde lab-adore ass from one shady spot to another & looks at us like the whole damn summer heat thing is our fault. poor angels.

Josh did manage to drag himself downstairs for an hour or so to fill up the bathtub with cold water & have a soak, as being the parents we are, we have disadvantaged our children considerably by supplying no inground pool nor spa.

I am washing, yes, again............and the heat of the day has passed into a warm but bearable night. Marc & Josh are at my mother in laws & I am doing some last minute things before retiring to finish Mary.

EVERYONE is experiencing Mary moments at this time- over tha last few weeks the poor catholic emporium in town has been bombarded with witches who are being called back to the Mother.

So much of Her energy around, its affecting everyone.

I have channelled Mother Mary previously and yet, i cant seem to get anything through at this stage- the only message, a brief message is to 'read, learn, acknowledge the truth & stay open'

Yes, i am trying, i am - there is so much to stay open to.

It broke my heart today to do some major reshaping & transplanting of my beloved Elder Tree.
The fact is, when i bought this beautiful tree, ( my goddess tree as i call it), I was informed it would reach certain heights etc that it has managed to surpass & then some in a little over 3 years.

She has been severly cut back now & taken from her large tub into a beautiful 'in the earth' position over at the Cottage. I couldnt believe how root bound she was, and was still mangaing to come forward with some beautiful flowers.

Marc, Will & I dragged her stump over to the Cottage & transplanted her with some crystals &moonwater for good measure. i have made her an abundance amulet & now will wait & watch to see if she 'takes' - Im sure she will- I love that tree.

I kept all the flowers & brnaches we needed to remove & sometime in the future they will get used at the Cottage. The important thing about elder is that is cannot be burned;- according to the rede 'elder be the Lady's tree, burn it not or cursed you'll be'.

mmmmm, who is Shergar......the plot thickens............

anyway, that s me done for today except to mention that Matt a Sauraus Rex has a job interview tomorrow to become, wait for it...................an apprentice BUTCHER !

This is most hysterical really with Prue being the staunch little vego greenie that she is.........wow, if he was to get this job & I hope he does for his sake, can you imagine the fun there is going to be !!!

Just realised I havent eaten today, so am having some cashews........

Am meeting Mary at Goldbergs at 10am for spiritual gabfest if anyone is interested in joining us.................

be nice- I am that i am & so are you

the blanks.............

somethings i like :

1. the word 'nourish'
2. my flowy white dresses ( yes, i bought two last summer)
3. being alone
4. the way my hair looks when the hairdresser has done it
5. 'thin days'
6. the feel of freshly shaved legs
7. a clean house
8. happiness
9. growing stuff, like herbs, trees, kids & animals etc
10. fresh white bread with butter, avocado ( really thick) salt & black pepper (ground) and smothered in lemon juice
11. when the Cottage is tidy
12. making sense of non sensical things
13. being inspired

somethings I dont like:

1. anchovies
2. being ignored
3. having my life planned for me
4. not having a book to read
5. housework
6. hairy legs & smelly pits
7. prues room / joshuas room
8. confrontation
9. being judged
10. not knowing everything
11. dog doo
12. mornings
13. parmesan cheese

embarrassing things about me :

1. i wear what i want ,when i want ,to where i want.
2. the above often does not include a bra
3. i burp out loud when i need to
4. i am a two drink wonder
5. when i have two drinks i love to tell EVERYONE how much i love them
6. i require a lot of sleep
7. i love big brother
8. i lose interest very quick
9. i wear cottontails which are really huge undies
10. my nose glows
11. i have little excess pouches of skin happening all over my face & neck
12. i am totally craft retarded
13. i dont dress up or down to go anywhere- i just am- whatever........

some things ive never done:

1. travelled outside of Australia
2. had sex on a beach
3. smoked
4. taken drugs
5. had plastic surgery
6. built a house or bought furniture on my own
7. understood how the words of the Divine can be so twisted to some people
8. accepted without question
9. taken money for a lousy reading
10. cooked duck or deer or a bunny rabbit
11. had a gay relationship
12. experienced the loss of a child
13. expereinced the loss of a parent

somethings i want to do in the next twelve months

1. sell our property at Dawson St
2. see my beautiful up duff neice deliver a beautiful, healthy baby blue star
3. revel in my childrens continued growth & awakening
4. bring the Cottage to a new level of growth & abundance for all to enjoy
5. appreciate Marc more
6. meet Jackson Browne
7. work with Mother Mary- understand her - open to her
8. lose 30 kilos & get a tattoo
9. give caffiene away for good
10. publish my book
11. find my calling
12. help others find their calling
13. go to egypt with my daughter ( josh doesnt want to go, nor does Marc)

somethings i wont do in the next twelve months

1. buy another dog
2. close the Cottage
3. starve
4. go backwards
5. have a baby
6. react instead of act
7. shave my legs
8. let my hormones run down again
9. close my mouth
10. deliberatly harm
11. give up chocolate
12. part with my dogs
13. mow the lawn

Goji & Coffee- Mary to Mary

1. 10am tomorrow at Goldbergs sounds great
2. yes, the symbols are alphabet & I think relate to a combination of you & rylah
3. goji
4. I am hot but ok & Mary ( mother of Jesus) is leading the way to some new understanding- plan on reading all day
5. Me

who is Shergar ?

Sorting Me Out

It is starting to cool down.
It has been a rather large day with much hustle & bustle commencing at around 6am this morning.

Marc is out celebrating his Grand Final Victory with his team & I am here, with the children, who are at this point in time watch Mercury Rising with Bruce Willis, making toast & drinking something that is making them both burp loudly.

The washing machine & drier churn like their lives depend on it and I am having great thoughts of climbing into my freshly made bed with my lovely fresh sheets to read.

Tomorrow has no great plans so I will sleep in & do the markets I think.

The fair today was a disappointment for us readers & also for Goji- people stayed away indroves & I truly dont understand why.

Maybe the price was too high or maybe the location was off- who really knows why these things happen or dont happen as it was today ?

The main point of the fair was to raise money for the public school & when I spoke with my sisters partner tonight , he said they had raised between 14 & 16 thousand- a wonderful, wonderful effort.

I guess my big problem is that I hate doing fairs & the like & when the wind picked up & the customers didnt I was only too happy to pack the whole lot of the stuff into the car & head to Maccas with Josh for a fast, unappetising lunch...........it was just that.

The workshop next door went well from all reports & I managed to spend half an hour with Paula & Tracey this afternoon after it was finished, which was nice.

Paula reports that there are NO negetive energies ( ghosts) in the Cottage which I guess is the equivilent to a spiritual pest report.

Sometimes, I just get sick of asking why ?

Im talking spiritual stuff here. I want to know EVERYTHING and yet the answers I receive seem to be riddles or more questions- it frustrates me no end.

My guides have told me so many times that the full knowledge of WHY is beyond the human scope of awareness and yet, I find that so hard to accept.
People get close to understanding - they must- look at Jesus, Yogananda, Ghandi,Buddah, to name only a few.
How did they know what they knew?
When they asked questions, who answered them so completley that they could move forward?

Or is this when faith comes in & if it is, am I lacking in faith ?

One of my dear sisters wrote to me today and asked me if I thought that maybe Ryone is a aspect of me on a higher level.
Its worth thinking about but the process of trying to sort out who is what & when & where is beyond me.........

To be completely truthful, I am feeling lost lately- lost on my path.
I DO have faith in that i know there is much i cant know at this time and I need to trust but I just feel hopelessly out of my depth recently.

Suddenly everything I had always believed as relevant now becomes 'just another part of the puzzle' and there are more aspects of Divinity that I ever could have dreamt.

I am rambling here, I know.

I believe in the source of all creation. In Divine messengers ( angels, guides, elementals, aspects of the divine ie god/goddess/all that is)
I beleive that everything happens for a reason in its own time & place.

I guess what I am having trouble with here is sorting out what I beleive in in regards to other worlds, planets, life & living on other planets, spaceships, aliens etc..........

Its not that I dont believe in the possibility of these things its just that I am having trouble incorporating it all into what I have always known and beleived to be truth for me.

How do I accept all these new possibilities & truths into my life without causing major change to the belief structures I already have in place- that i am comfortable with, that work for me........

This is where I am at right now- trying hard to incorporate the very earth witch within me with the whole probability of a universe I did not know existed ?

Where do angels fit into all this now & yes, who is Ryone? A higher aspect of me, a master or maybe an angel, guide or even a being not of this world?
How does that sit with me ?

I just dont know.

I do accept that the spiritual path I live has its everyday challenges- this is what allows us to grow as souls & as people. My real challenge has never been faith- i do believe and I do accept that I dont always have proof, and that for me is fine.

My real challenge is taming the logical Lisa with the spiritual Lisa & opening up to the possibility of new, undiscovered ( by me ) territory. This is where I need strength & help- in allowing myself to accept what is possible rather than to settle with what is comfortable.

For the longest time, i had problems merging the Angelic world with my world as a Witch. it took much learning, time & faith to realise that angels, guides etc are not part of any particular religious faction and are there for all who seek Divine light. Once I opened up to the posssibilities, the Angels came to me.

I now feel like I am facing a similar challenge again, a readjustment of thoughts & feelings a new process of learning.

I have only ever looked at the creator in regards to Earth & the outer realms- I now need to expand my thinking & awareness and it frightens me. It challenges me. It takes me out of my comfort zone.

Sorry to ramble- the joy of blogs- thank you for reading.

E x