12.54pm-2008

In Gratitude for..........the year that was and the year that will be

Its been a big year.
I have no real complaints, so i am blessed i know.

Marc and I are blessed to still have our Parents ( all four of them) alive and going strong.
My children still have their grandparents.
For these two reasons alone, i am grateful for 2008.

The kids are infuriatingly independent and strong, and HOM has found his form and place with Hockey.

I am doing well- the nightmare of 2005-2006 now far behind me, with residual 'black' days and residual 'speech blips' and almost complete memory loss, but still, very OK.

My Faith is in tact and as long as that remains, i will always be ok.

My personal plans for 2009 are simple really.

To live in gratitude.
To express that gratitude.
To live with tolerance and to express that tolerance.
To be authentic Lisa.
To be present in NOW

My professional plans are simple too.

To re-establish my self as a respected Spiritual Reader.
To expand my YAAD course further by delegating more of the workload and focusing on the 'ones who want to be there'
To continue empowering Women through spirituality.
To launch my new course "Woman Craft"

As a teacher i hope to
inspire
impart knowledge
and never be afraid to see my students bloom and out grow me
never be selfish with my knowledge- a candle flame loses nothing when another candle is lit from it- in fact, i like to think it burns brighter.

I need only look around me to those i love who are suffering to know that i am indeed a blessed woman.
My ups and downs are mild compared to the trials faced by many, and i understand and respect that fact.

I will support anyone who supports themselves and i am here for coffee, chats and shoulders to cry on- but i will tell you truth as i see it and this i know can leave me seeming cold and indifferent.

I am not.
I feel so much more than anyone else can every realise- ask HOM, who lives with me 24/7.

Whatever the year 2008 has bought to you, know that next year - tomorrow, will be better-bigger, brighter.
It has to be.
The energies change, nothing is the same- so make a choice that it will be better.

Enjoy tonight, go easy on the fireworks and champagne.

I am lighting a new year candle for all my blogging friends.

Grace, Joy, Gratitude..........................NOW

Lisa xx

9.28am- from my journal (22/12/08)

In Gratitude for..........being taught to read and write- THANK YOU

from my journal:

the words wont come

trying to focus

on a face

that wont form

this is me

formless

yet trying still to fit the mould

the words wont come

the next step awaits me

large brash and life altering

at this stage

still formless

with no mould to fit

and the words just wont come

the plan is altering

differing

dipping

changing direction

and i am a toss

and a loss

for the walls of my safety

are gone

and i don't know what next to

do

I cant go back

yet forward alludes me

i am lost for this minute

lost in the possibilities and

the openness of no form

the words wont come

Lisa xx

10.21- make a choice

In Gratitude for..........rain

its only a bit of rain but well worth having

still humid but OK
nice to hear from Mary Me and Morgs
who seem to have survived intact

make a choice
a wise woman told me that
and i am pondering it today
along with a myriad of other minutea
flowing through the raihn brain

i can smell the new year
the new energy
the new journal of life

a new year brings us
fresh new pages
blanks
to fill in as we will

it is untouched
(remember my theory on why we all love stationery so much ?)
and so all we see from here
is 365
days of PURE POTENTIAL

start a new journal
make a new wish
learn a new skill
adopt a new lifestyle
make a new choice

whatever

MAKE 2009 WORK FOR YOU

it's an 11
master number

MAKE IT YOUR MASTER YEAR

Some things are not meant to be kept forever
some relationships are not meant to last forever ( and i am talking family too!)
some thoughts, beliefs, values, etc are not meant to define you forever

What are you holding onto that is no longer of use?
What are you thinking of taking into 2009 that really doesn't have the energy to grow and prosper there?

Make a choice.
Make a choice.

Enter 2009 NAKED.
NEW
SHINY


I am

Blessed Be xx
Lisa xx

11.39am- the way of this warrior

In Gratitude for..........books

Shambhala is hard work
i think
most disciplines are
hence the name

HOM slept upstairs last night
to give me a break from the nocturnal noises
it worked
i am in gratitude

the dishes are done
so is the washing

i am just hangin'
trying to be me
real and true

yes Na, i get burning feet
and aching legs
particularly the left leg ( in the area just under the knee)
from about 4pm onwards
and the left cankle and heel

mmmm
warrior ship is interesting
and i know know what 'windhorse' is
also 'egolessness'

most of what i teach in basic Wicca/witchcraft is encompassed in the teachings of other disciplines and structures
this makes me feel good
that what i teach as true
is in fact true

so
need to drink more water
and be me

and re- read about 'cocoons"

blessed i am
as are you

Lisa xx

11.57am- sneezing, selling shoes, steak and sleep

In Gratitude for..........a comfortable lounge

Poor HOM

Since SPF eve, HOM and his snoring has been unbearable.
Usually, it is bearable and once i get to sleep, i don't notice it.

This week however has been AWFUL and last night was the culmination of it all.

He has a cold- so breathing while sleeping is a noisy, difficult process. So is sneezing; a necessary part of the 'cold' process but also not conductive to good nights sleep for anyone.

Add to all this, that being a hormonal women, a FAN next to the bed is classed as a life saving device- however, HOM's with colds can not tolerate the fan and so it had to go off.

I repeat- poor HOM.

By 1.30am i could take it no more, and moved my two pillows and my comforter out to the lounge to sleep.
I also set up a fan, put it on 3 on blasted my own personal body humidity away.

Trouble was, once I was set up, i had missed the 'sleep' window, so laid awake until almost 4.30am before dropping off.

Was woken at 8.15am by a stomping, unwell HOM and the Rex using the phone.

Stayed awake until about ten and then collapsed while doing the Lovatt Mega Puzzle.

Can not remember if i took my meds or not.

Awoke to hge noise with HOM ( who wont be beaten by a summer cold ) and SOM, systematically removing all signs of Mick mouse from the nest by taking down lights and tree etc- while clearing our the 'old' from SOM's room to make room for the new.

My nest, last night so pristine, is a mess- and so i have made a brew and headed upstairs until they all calm down or collapse or something.

I have heard DOM has a summer cold too.

I have lichens, and it is active, and that is enough.

There are no ordinary moments. None.

My dream was about me going to work in shoe shop as a mail girl.
The shoe shop was at greenhills- big and popular and run by a young couple- her name was SHARON but his escapes me.
I started working on the same day as another young girl- she was about 19 and it soon becomes obvious that i had been employed so they could pick my brains- seems they were looking at expanding the business and wanted to know about herbs, books, and other spiritual minutiae.
They also wanted me to cook them steak, which i did as part of my job description.

There were people from my past, who showed up and even the uniform i had to wear was the blue dress i used to wear at the Water Board when i was 19.

In the dream, in the shoe shop, i was very aware of personalities and ego- i knew who was 'boss' and took care not to step on toes, even though i knew more- it was a dream about being very 'aware'- but i was the only one.

Strange.
Next I was walking on wet paint and buying Avon from a women named Mary. I attended a dinner with young people who were all bitching about each other- i could see it but had to just observe.

strange.

it has gone quiet downstairs
maybe someone has collapsed

we need ice cream

me xx

7.41pm- NOWness

In Gratitude for..........all

busy but not
busy at a slow pace
lots to do but not
easy days

reading , yes
finished Dan Millman
it made some sense

am happy and waiting for the new year
because i have a new journal
that is booftul
the new year cant come quick enough when you have a new journal

house is cool
tidy
SOM scored big with DVD's
HOM is quiet-
DOM is out with the Rex's family
I am semi dressed and functioning on literature and chocolate

ok ok

nowness
my 2009 plan
here, now, here, now

there are NO ordinary moments

I am working to implement this

hope you are all well

will be a random blogger of sorts for a couple of days i imagine

my footy is itchy

family
yesterday was lovely
i am drinked and nibblied out
i am ham, chicken, porked and prawned out
I am puddinged out
i am champagned out

time to think towards setting goals for the new year
in my new journal

spoilt i am

yep

blessed be xx

5.27pm- mickmouse day

In Gratitude for..........family

am with family
having food
chocolate fountain
champagne
prawns and assorted Solstice fare

life is good
blessed

Santa was kind
yep

gratitude xxx

9.47am- see you on the other side

In Gratitude for..........the night before mickmouse

and John Corbett

i have a new stalker!!

number 12!!

( people read this dribble ??? )

anyhow

lots of wonderful gifts last night

despite a rule last year from red family re purchasing of mickmouse gifts

we all still got SPOILT

and now i have some books to read

have decided to keep Mickmouse books til the new year and am

reading DAN MILLMAN

Way of the Peaceful Warrior

a bit trippy but am into it for sure

need to brave COLES

for dead birds times two

and have to see EVA this afternoon

we have guests tonight

so more drinks and nibbles

ho ho ho

watched 'my big fat Greek weeding'

last night

with JOHN CORBETT who is

amazingly HOT

well, am about to dive into mickmouse 2008

SOM requires the computer for the rest of the day

being a fil-um aker and all

see you on the other side of this whole scho-moozel

Blessed Litha

xx

5.16pm- in a minute twill be mick-mouse

In Gratitude for..........HOM

house is incredibly tidy
and clean
am too scared to sneeze
it is so perfect

HOM is a one in a million type guy like that
he cleans up

a visit from cousin Adam with assorted offspring this morning
catching me in cottontails and no bra
coffee with Ankle on the footpath in Darby st
she is my befri
for sure

headachy and over tired
through reading 500 plus pages
in 36 hours

goose i am

mick- mouse drinks tonight with the red clan
and a storm on the horizon

must buy dead chickens tomorrow to bake for
annual ritual family gathering on Mick Mouse day
lots of presents under the mickmouse tree
hounds are excited

must go make fruit platter and clean teeth

and not make a mess at all

HOM is all i wanted for Mickmouse
a clean house

very nice

desperately need a book to read now

rain is here
ho ho ho

Lisa x

9.43am- books and Andy Kaufman

In Gratitude for..........books and olives

reading a book about a girl who was bought up in polygamist Mormon sect- it is rippingly good and i cant put it down

washing too

have just watched the trailer for the new Meryl Streep movie 'doubt' about all manner of stuff in the Catholic Church..........wow, looks fabulous

Meryl is a goddess

for sure
and muchly

must shower

me x

9.55am - K9 super hero

In Gratitude for..........TREVOR


Trev barked his brains out last night, down the side, out side of our window.
I got up to see what was going on and found a man crouched under one of our trees , in the dark, doing goodness knows what.

He obviously heard me say to HOM 'there is someone under the tree' because then he got up and rushed down the front to high st, jumped in his car ( with no lights on) and sped off.

Trev was in overdrive.

Unlike his predecessor, William, Trev is NOT a barker.

He needs a reason and last night he had one.

I gave him massive cuddles and big kisses.

Just what the guy was doing out there i don't know- he could have been shooting up, taking a dump or even wanking - HOM has this morning been unable to find any trace of what his activities where, so maybe Trev disturbed him before it was 'time'.

HOM thinks that maybe the goal was actually Prue's car, which for some reason was left out last night and not locked in the yard as usual-;its an old car and one of those COVETED by baddies for ram raids, joy rides etc................

Trev is a hero and
what of the blonde bimbo, RUBY-DOr?

Slept right through the lot of it, including the part where i was out the back in my cotton tails and boob tube.
Not just sleeping but snoring too.
Such is life for an old , fat, lab-adore, who now leaves the baddy rustling to her little bro with the weird do.

HOM has this morning, braved, MAITLAND MARKETS.
Needless to say, he went without me, thank the GODDESS and his recent phone contact suggests that that was indeed a great idea.

I have a sore Danny and am thinking of heading back to my bed to do some puzzles.

Life is indeed blessed at this end.

Am calling in my angels and sending them to HOM

he will need them i think

Trev is the MAN and he has stolen my blue shoe and pink stripy sock to prove it.

HOM is going to pick him up a cow as a reward.

DREAMs

arguing
water
China
locked doors
keys
ex neighbours
ex boyfriends
ex plumbers
ex jobs
depression
tears
no one understanding

cleansing yes
yes

me xx

7.32pm- Karma and the Milko

In Gratitude for..........bravery

I try to make the most of SPF energy even though as you mostly know, SPF is a bit of a struggle for me.

However, earth energies are high and if the miraculous can be achieved, now would be as good a time as any.

So, i have done what i usually do this time of year, and 'made contact'

By making contact i mean, opening a door to repair or reestablish contact in a relationship that for whatever reason, has fallen by the wayside.

This year, as in the past couple of years, there is only one, and i have sent that particular person an email with genuine Christmas love and well wishes.

it may be ego that forces me to reach out, but whatever, this is someone i wish was still apart of my life and so being the first to make contact feels right.

Yesterday it didn't, but today it does.

Funny that.

DREAMS.

People floating in and out from all stages of my growth- as my guides told me about a month ago, this is part of finally letting go and so i realise that the dreams are cleansing me to make room for the growth that is ahead.

Life is good.

HOM is good- we have achieved much today.

The Lichens that raises its head every summer is doing its best to annoy me, but i am being resistant and just taking life as it comes.

For those of you unfamiliar to Lichens Sclerosis- just do a google search and see what comes up- not pretty but a very real part of this life for me.

Am doing some beading and enjoying not have to think forward.

Am in gratitude too
for having the funds available to purchase needed nibbles for when Chrissy guests drop in.

You are welcome BTW- anytime.

Also KARMA- HOM has encountered first hand the benefit of KARMA-in a very nice gesture this year, HOM left our MILKO two beers and a box of chocolates with the cheque for the last account.

( poor MILKO almost fell down front stairs- unaccustomed as he is to appreciation)

Today, our lovely neighbour Beverley, handed HOM a SPF card for us containing $100 as a special thank you for all the nice things HOM does for her through out the year, like mowing the lawn, trimming the trees etc...........

$100 !!!!
manna from heaven for sure
we are suitably impressed and grateful.

Is there someone you should reach out to at this time of the year ?

and BTW
where is Jacqui ?

smooches

8.13am- this time every year

In Gratitude for..........advance knowledge

HOM goes into a 'something' mood at this time of the year.
I'm glad i know about it is all, because he withdraws, becomes angry and basically not a happy boy.

I have, over the years, put it down to a number of things- cessation of work after going flat out all year, sudden influx of time on his hands, money worries about no work, being home with me , Christmas and family, etc...........
Every year it takes the smallest thing to trigger it and off he goes.

I am on egg shells at the moment, as are the kids and Ruby. Trev is not, he is too young to know that daddy needs a week of holidays before he starts holidays.

So, that's it in a nutshell.

I am grateful that i got almost all the shopping finished yesterday and for a husband who put his bad mood to good use by cleaning out the pantry.

I am grateful for my washing machine and a fridge that works and for my very own copy of 'A NEW EARTH' by Ekehart Tolle.
Everyone should read this book- regardless of how spiritually advanced you are- this book has something for everyone.

It has introduced me to the concept of 'pain-bodies' which i am sure i knew about on some level but have enjoyed hearing and learning more about- also ego and recognising it in me and in you.

I feel i do pretty well at living in the now, i have this release system in my head where if i start to fall back into old memories ( and associated behaviour) i just push myself past it.

It keeps me here,
and now
the only place of power.

Unfortunately ,it also makes me seem a cold, hard, bitch at times, but that is your issue, not mine.

This time every year I am so grateful for the work i do, the family i have, the friends who support me regardless and the hounds who share my life and who know what i look like naked, but never laugh.

My dreams of late- wow.
SO REAL that it is actually frightening.
Family scenarios- not his family but my family with Mum, dad and Sharon- that family, the olden days so to speak.

I know i still carry some hurts, but honestly, they are so minor, i cant believe they warrant all this dream attention.
However, it is cheaper than renting a DVD and probably a lot more helpful to my Ascension as well.

so, dream i will, i must, it seems.

for the first year in a long time i find myself without a calender for 2009- ELF usually supplies me with one via the SPF present route, however this year she gifted me with a beautiful journal instead- this means i will be hitting the CC after SPF sales this year.

Dreams
Husbands
Egg shells

have to go- it SPF in a minute
the nest is quiet and tidy thanks largely to the fact that DOM and The Rex are house-sitting the Cottage for a few weeks for me.

if HOM was happy, it would be bliss
but he's not- his pain body is trying to get me to react, which it wont.

read the book.

smooch xxx

9.09am-20c for elvis

In Gratitude for..........fans

am about to brave Westfield
HOM has finished work for the year
SOM is finished school
only DOM rocks on as florists do at this time of the year
very busy

SPF preparations are almost over
and we still have some days to go

need food too
but am living on air and light at the moment

all is well

working with EGO
mine and yours
all this time i have thought i only really could do anything about mine
however
i now realise that so much of you is ego too
and just realising that
helps me deal with it

once we are aware of it
we are free of it

smooch to the nth degree xxx

11.52am- cleaning the fish bowl

In Gratitude for..........the morning after the year that was

exhausted
dead on my feet
SOM is home having decided enough education is enough
HOM is at work after his SPF party last night

i have a few gifts to get
and some wrapping to do
the washing is momentous
and i am thinking of going back to bed for a couple of hours

left over M&M's are an unexpected treat

my year in review ?

participated
survived
achieved
grew
stretched
taught
learnt
lived
slept
laughed
cried

in a nutshell by a nut case

um, that would be me xx

10.52pm - Go Home

In Gratitude for..........SPF

no Jen, not quite yet........

a huge night at the Cottage with fabulous gifts and wonderful yummy food and super duper special company

a special guest appearance by Ankle of my heart, WITH a gift for me too

blessed i am

Cottage is now officially closed until Jan 12

Its been a big week
a big day
a big night

Tania excelled with the gifts.
They were special indeed

Jac and Cheryl and Amanda and Renata spoilt me too
So did Eva
and Deb and Gayle
and Diana and Jen

blessed I am

all witches have now left the building

gratitude

how very blessed i am

8.53am-book bitch , hold the olives

In Gratitude for..........books

am in a filthy of my own creation
stayed up late last night ( and I mean late)
reading new books
and now am tired and grumpy
like two dwarfs in one

basically, i don't care that Bec and Lleyton have a boy named Cruz
yet i imagine it is joyous news for someone
but not me

i am tired
and accepting of the blame

bloody Eckhart Tolle !
bloody 'new earth' !

stuff to do, no going back to bed today

in gratitude for

• coffee
• dreams of Renata which made me laugh
• presents from the witches
• Kathleen's journal
• my hounds
• SPF and the energy it brings
• a clean sink
• sports bras
• and Diana's wonderful rose cream mix for my reptilian skin

all is well

'i will not stay up to four o'clock reading '

bosh x

12.05am- biggest bush

In Gratitude for..........humour and the ring on my pinky

oh dear
have read Morgs-o-fur's blog and realised that it is indeed bush blogging time........
must whip out the aldi camera and snap some bush before its too late

its Xmas in a minute you know
one more group event and then the Cottage is closed for the year
i will relax then and hopefully get some reading done

two new books arrived today
and the Eckhart Tolle one i have borrowed from Heidi who is a hornbag to be sure

I need to say thank you
to the wonderful girks who make up my Women's Spirituality Group
Amanda, Morgs, Deb, Diana, Cathy, Heidi, Eva amongst others who pop in now and then.

They are a terrific group of soul searchers and the group has a great mix of humour and reverence- they don't even mind me telling them to go home nor do they complain ( too much) when they are made to wear the Grinch Hat for inappropriate behaviour ( its a long story)

They make my group sing with conversation and willingness to learn
Blessed I am
I am blessed
I know the night change wont throw them too much next year

i wish it would rain
and that SPF was over
but
all is as good as it can be for now

looking forward to tomorrow nights SPF party
the Cottage will be open from 5pm for readings and healing by donation

please drop in and say hello

I have thoroughly saged and smudged the entire Cottage this afternoon, which has left me smelling like a bonfire tinged with Lemon Myrtle.

am wondering how many cottage -goer's would be interested in breakfast somewhere on Xmas Eve...
we did this once before and it was great
i would be happy to organise it if anyone is interested

going to bed now
because i can

LIsa xx

4.11pm- the B O frock

In Gratitude for..........my sense of smell

its official
i stink
especially when wearing the B O frock
which is a frock
i snapped up on special at
K mart a few weeks back

not used to being a Queen of all Things Woofy
i was alarmed today when during my Diva's class i encountered
'pong'
and upon investigation found that said 'pong' was coming from ME
via the B O frock

so
warning Will Robertson
about buying very cheap
and lovely
but also very smelly frocks from the big K

the material leaves hormonal women with NOWHERE to melt
and does nothing to ventilate the dampness left from
hourly hot flashes
leaving you with a migraine inducing rank
that a dead dogs aunty would barf at

striped naked i am
well almost,
sports bra and cotton tails
and the reek of me is gone
thank the Goddess, Hygenia
for i was a ripe cherry to be sure
and sickly too

the B O dress lies abandoned
and in disgrace
on the floor near my laundry basket
awaiting my laundry type administrations
to make it smell booftul
or to at least try

groan

a smelly witch is not cool

and even though i don't know what a polecat
is i am sure i smelt like one

even worse
becasue i paid for my frock


groan xx

12.15pm- why ?

In Gratitude for..........fingers to scratch with

why cant i leave a comment on Natalies blog ?????????

feeling very hated here !!!!!!

7.36am- much ado

In Gratitude for..........perspective

lots to do

a son who is performing at the Year Ten formal ( today) and therefore needs formal gear and TELLS ME ABOUT IT AT 8.30pm LAST NIGHT

an interview with the deputy head regarding said sons academic choices for next year

an almost brilliant report card from said SON- if you don't count maths and science and PE

a Diva's class

a Women's Spirituality Group

housework

office works

but

SPF gifts are wrapped

Hounds are flea-d

coffee is hot

time is available

SON now fits HOM formal gear so , once it is ironed, he has something to wear to day

life

life

have a good day xxx

10.56am- are WE ever really happy?

In Gratitude for..........attitude

sometimes WE ( and that does NOT exclude ME) just leave me bewildered

the pursuit of happiness

Jesus, do we ever really have our eyes open ??

it appears to me that we, humanity, live in a world where we can manifest with relative ease, where we are blessed with free will and yet still, i look around and all i see are unhappy people.

Just what more does ti take to make us happy?

Do the powers that be sit up there ( or where ever) and think "well, there are the most ungrateful bunch of so & so's we ever created"

who could blame them if they did?

like i said, this is not exclusive to you, me, or the readers of my blog but it does seem to be a trend amongst us ( humanity), to always set the benchmark for happiness at 'unattainable' and there fore live a life where we feel we are always struggling to reach something just out of reach.

I want to cry about it really i do- the frustration of seeing us constantly wanting more or less, constantly needing to be denied in our minds so that we have reason to whine.

Even when we get what we ask for, we complain.

Is true happiness really possible ?

While we have the benefit of free will and attitude, will we ever be happy ?

I know about KARMA but honestly, in my life at this moment, there is only one person i can think of who really is going through the battle of negative KARMA- everyone else seems to have found themselves in a position and decided its not good enough.

I don't know.

I am constantly trying to keep myself in check regarding this- I KNOW how blessed i am but i still whinge at times and i still feel hard done by.

But is this really so ?
Does my thinking it is so , make it so?

Full of questions i am
pissed off with negative attitudes to a world that is of your own creation.

we are living with the results of our choices, but still we look to blame.

Most of the people who read my blog are people i have seen at the lowest periods of their lives- when live really was hard and dismal and they felt they would never be truly happy again. Most of these people have made major steps forward and yet, still find them selves in a place of pain and tears.

I don't understand and I'm not down playing any ones pain here, its just that attitude has to come into this somewhere.

personal responsibility?

when does your unhappiness stop being everyone Else's fault?
why is it in the first place?

the complaints i am hearing about the 'rudd money' that has come through- $1000 dollars at least handed to people for NO real reason at the most crucial part of the year and people are STILL complaining, that it is not enough

i don't understand

so maybe i sound jaded?
i don't care- i am so past the point of people thinking that they have no responsibility for their own happiness and that this world owes them a living or even a happy life.

I am so past seeing the universe heap reward upon reward on some people only to hear them complain because its still not enough.

JUST WHAT DOES IT TAKE TO MAKE US HAPPY?
What more does it take?

I don't know
surely gratitude has to factor in here somewhere
and how about the fact that we have food, clothing, shelter, cars, money, computers, friends, intelligence, love, etc..........
doesn't that mean anything ??

I know that when KARMA hits , then life is hard. I know that.
Ive seen it with you, Ive seen it with me
What i am saying is that not every perceived negative event in our life is KARMA and more likely, it is just our perception that makes it a negative event to start with.

I think we all need a trip to gratitude.
we all need to start a blessings jar or similar
we all need to savour our morning cup of coffee while thinking of people who need to walk 20km for dirty water.




what we DONT need is to GET HAPPY
we need to BE HAPPY
we need to get REAL

me xx

7.01pm- to read or not to read

In Gratitude for..........improved calender sales for the Elf

have held of blogging today because was fearful of the useless dribble i may sprout, when truly, all in my world is OK and real people like Michelle are doing it very hard.

I get angry with me for seeing my gloom when the gloom of so many is so much more real than mine and so, today, i thought, 'no'

This week winds up the Cottage for the year and it has been a HUGE year i must say, with next year showing every sign of being just as big, if not bigger in many ways.

i am open to this but also open to the changes that are occurring to allow me more freedom with my work.

Strangely enough, I am being guided to read again- and the guidance is strong and relentless.

As many of you would know, up until my meltdown of a couple of years back i was a very active Tarot and Spiritual reader here in Newcastle, but i found that after i had the breakdown and the resulting problems with speech, i just wasn't being pulled back into reading that way i had been.

Over the last 24 months i have done very few readings and have been happy with it that way, however now, i am being propelled back into it and in no gentle manner.

I am being told to use my experience and my past learning and to get myself established again as a reader in this area, but i am wondering if i am actually ready to go there, ready to pick up the cards and the assorted consequences that come with them, full time again.

My guides say yes but i have some doubts.

I think i used to be a good reader but now i wonder if maybe i have 'lost it' somehow over the last few years.

Its also a bitch fight too you know. Basically, if people don't hear what they want to hear, or don't like the way you read,then they say its a negative reading and slander your name all over town- i have heard awful things about all the girls i know who read including myself and i wonder, could i allow myself to become involved in the spiritual warfare again.

I just don't know.

This Wednesday night between 5-7pm at the Cottage i will be doing some 'by donation' readings with Trish and Deb- this will give me an idea of where to go from here.

YAAD continues of that you can have no doubt, although there will be some changes, they will be GREAT changes that will benefit everyone involved.

I will also continue on with my Women's Spirituality Group and most certainly want to keep going with the Monthly Intuitive Movement Group and Book of Shadows group.

Other stuff too- i have so many plans, but i am just strolling here, taking my time because i need to rest now before getting geared up to go again.

I am exhausted
and seeing things
and thinking alot about death
but not in a morbid way
merely as part of life

Reading about Tibetan Buddhism will do that to you- they are very focused on living and dying well and it does make you think about what exactly would happen, if your time was up tomorrow.

I have no fear of dying really- having had a NDE i know that when we leave here, we go there ( where ever there is) but i am wondering if we getting any kind of notice that our time is coming to an end.

Do you think that maybe sometime prior to actual death, you start to get the 'signs' that it is almost over?

I'm pondering, as is my way.

I would like to think we do- kind of like a 'last drinks' bell, to tell us to finish up.

Tired but almost through.
AM looking forward to seeing everyone at the Cottage sometime this week and to getting gifts and giving too.

Life is OK and i am doing a lot of work in my head.

I know i have something of value to offer.

Maybe its time to read again.

me xx

6.46am- shave a peeoodle for SPF

In Gratitude for..........Naomi

who is the wonderful lady who breeds little Trev's and then keeps them looking spiff at minimum cost every five weeks

Have awoken this morning to the shrill barking of a very pissed off Labrador, who , after eating a hearty breakfast, loves nothing more than to return to bed for an hour or two.

Pee-oodle boy of mine had different ideas for her and she was not happy.

He doesn't realise, when trying to get her to 'play' with him, that he is skirting dangerously close to having his head removed.

Problem is solved however, with peeoodle now locked out and Lab- adore on a rug in the living room- she would rather be in her kennel, but knows my intention is pure and so is willing to compromise and meet me half way in order to go back to sleep in peace. I have even put the Christmas lights on for her, because she finds the twinkling soothing.

Meanwhile
it's Matter-day

HOM is working as he does on the Matter- days leading up to SPF
SOM is 'filming' today- his 'cast' are due to arrive around nine and from what i understand the Cottage is the area of the 'shoot' for today
DOM is a floral veterinary nurse type person
and I am the Mother of a Pee-oodle who needs a haircut and there for a trip to see Naomi.

ALL is well in the nest- all is well.

Did i mention the rain ?
All night and looks set in for sure.
Beautiful.

Ruby is snoring and the house is quiet.
I am reading about the law of attraction by Esther and Jerry Hicks and didn't know that 'Abraham' was a group of entities and not a singular entity.
Go figure.

Smells that Trigger migraine for me-
smelly dog
cigarette

i could hurl just thinking about it

enjoy today
enjoy the rain

its simple really

1.35pm - Full Moon for tonight Cancelled

In Gratitude for..........the grapevine


rain, rain, rain,
Xmas Xmas Xmas

does not a full moon ritual make.........

please pass this along
i am sure it was only one or two
of us coming anyway

lisa xx

9.15am- be nice

In Gratitude for..........blogs

• reading the blogs this morning i have
• decided we are all too hard on ourselves
• and all spend too much time reflecting on our perceived
• negatives rather than our positives
• and it is any wonder we are all going belly up
• and nose down so to speak
• we all expect ourselves to be something we are not
• and its driving us batty
• its a serious down fall to living in this world and
• blogging about it on a regular basis
• i always try to remember that my expectations of me are the things
• that cause my disappointments in me
• without expectation there is no disappointment
• why are we beating ourselves up?

my life today

• kitchen
• washing
• floors
• cottage
• full moon
• ankle coffee
• sleep
• rain
• dogs
• cleaning
• scratching
• being
• me

its simple really

does anyone have a copy of Ekhart Tolle's 'a new world' they can loan me ?

9.07pm- SPF run down

In Gratitude for..........Xmas club savings

chaos
but bearable
HOM and I are now $600 closer to clinching the Xmas deal for this year
and yet
we are still not finished
but close

thanking god that the days of small kids and toys are long past
and that reasonable kids
and reasonable requests are received

a lot of unhappy people out there tonight
but we were not two of them
preferring to 'just do it'
and get out
via Macca's for a Sundae of course

Full Moon tomorrow night and i must get to the Cottage for a clean up in the morning
more meetings with teachers
and a nest that looks like a bombs gone off

still, it appears we shall survive
another festive season
and for this there is gratitude of the MAXI MUS kind

all is ok

lots to think about but all good
as it should be

smooch xx

11.59am- For Helen

In Gratitude for..........pregnancy and its ups and downs and why

we are ALL supermums!!!

9.54am- Seven stripey sets of socks on special

In Gratitude for..........bargains!

• knee hi BONDS Stripey SOCKs
• normally
• 5.99
• on SPECIAL for
• 50 cents a pair
• SMILING i am
• SEVEN SET's have I
• SO
• am reading the Tibetin Book of Living and Dying
• and interesting read to be SURE
• and food for thought and pondering and consideration
• outside of material concerns,
• i had never really thought too much about
• preparing to die well
• SOME really inSIGHTful reading
• SO
• I am NOT a SATISFIED Witch with the SCHOOL SYSTEM
• and am putting on my very intense parent hat and wandering down to talk to
• teachers who are trying to avoid me and my SON
• about course SELECTION
• and the STUPID SETUP
• they are trying to SETTLE my SON in for 2009
• hhhhmmmm
• Nest is abysmal and
• hounds are un SETTLED
• they tell me i have IBS and CFS
• when SURELY
• what i have is
• EWS
• or Exhausted Witch SYNDROME
• SOMETIMES my SISTER
• SENDS me STRANGE messages
• and I am SURMISING that 2009
• is going to be the year of SIMPLICITY
• at least for this girl
• STUFF is going to move
• SAID goodbye too
• SIFTED through and SURRENDERED
• SIMPLY living will become my SLOGAN
• Its not a SACRIFICE to give up the SURPLUS
• SMOOCH

3.59pm- monumental minutea

In Gratitude for..........MILO

• am having tea with MRS Harris,
• queen of all MUGGLES
• and Lady Lord MAYORESS of Georgetown
• SOM is not immpressed
• however, DOM is and is going to MUCHO's for tea with MATT
• i am feeling unwell
• MIGRAINE
• well the over hang of it anyway
• and going out for a MEAL is not MY idea of fun
• but I will MANAGE
• HOM is working in MEREWETHER
• and living with a MOVIE star like Wilson One ( star of Gary)
• can be a pain in the neck
• He is MEGA demanding
• and expects star attention
• which is hard when you are a ball
• and when you have a MALE peeodle like MY Trev
• but we MANAGE
• MUSIC
• MYspace
• MERRY Christmas shopping and
• MANY things to do
• MISSING MICHELLE
• and MY MUM strangely enough
• MEANWHILE..........................

8.34am - itty bitty bed lights and light diets

In Gratitude for..........itty bitty bed lights and ELVES like Tania

automatic writing from last night 9/12/08- while in contact with Higher Self

when the depression hits it's so bad

more often than not i notice myself slipping towards the comfort zone of darkness

more often than not i find myself STRONG enough to pull me out before i fall

The medication I take now is minimal i guess compared to the drug haze of two years ago, when every solution was a drug and every drug was a problem

it hits me so unexpectedly these days and i fight against it, i do, because it is not where i want to be- that other world is NOT reality to me

I suffer to with thinking ( ego mind) that my depression is more worthy than yours. its not true of course, merely part of the illusion of separateness i experience when the dark clouds hit

home is my saviour- reality base- HOM who loves me but does not over indulge my dramatics

kids who breathe and give me strength to survive

How many times has their breath kept me alive? I have lost count, really i have

Cottage too, although this time of the year brings more downs that ups

just me

always the same at Christmas

always

do you know that to heal and be a healer, you are really depending on people to be sick, needy ?

just a thought

also about spirituality and how it gives you reward after you find peace- spirituality in itself is a process and peace is the destination, not always the journey.

life is the opposite i think

but so many people go onto a spiritual path seeking love and then wonder why they feel unfulfilled

i don't know of course

only surmising

a lost girl tonight

energies

earth energies

Huge and forward pressing and i am THE FOOL- that is my energy of now.

I feel it , the forward movement- the step i am about to take that is forward BUT may make or break me.

I am open to it, really i am- a change in direction, in growth, but still within the parameters of who i am and what i do

change for me and i am rejoicing with this- new growth and forward movement- my own breath keeping me alive

i deal with personalities you see and trying to be all is overwhelming, so i don't

i be me

maybe its not enough

or too much

who knows

maybe i am a melancholic personality and that is the reality of me however, my loathing of labels resists this and so i continue

my head hurts

reality hurts but also provides growth

I am in knots over Christmas and just wanting the best for you, the best for me

i am blessed to be loved by so many and those who don't love me matter little because that is OK TOO !!!

Visions of pyramids

diets of light ( yes, really)

in our new ascended levels we should also be 'digesting' light

strange i know- feeling 'the fool' for even mentioning it, but you rely on me for this stuff, don't you ???

it plays like this; in our new ascended light levels we tend to feel hungry ALL THE TIME- because of this, we eat, ALL THE TIME

however

, we seldom feel full or even satisfied

no matter how much we stuff ourselves

the reason?

because 'food' is no longer our only source of nutrition

'light' ( directed light) now has value as well

the suggested method is simple; go outside and raise your hands in front of you- make a triangle out of your thumbs and index fingers and direct this prism in the general direction of the the light source ( sun/ full moon)

do this for 10-15 minutes to 'drink' in the light

it takes away from your hunger and fills you up completely

give it ago

I am waiting for weight watchers to give sunlight a points value

DEBORAH means HONEY BEE and Deborah was/is a figure of great strength and leadership according to the Christian Bible.

She was the leader of Israel and ruled in peace for 40 years

An archetype we can all use, like, Athena, Diana- YES, we cover a lot of ground in Women's Spirituality Group.

I am settled in my new honestly ( with you) and have received feedback that this is what is required- the lesson of now.

Seraphis Bey is around me and i would love to do lunch with Ruth Montgomery.

Mind you, it would need to be a 'light' lunch because she passed over years ago.

Still, I would love to talk with her.

Full Moon this week

I remember the days of wine to support me- they are long gone but i am not

ALWAYS ask yourself " what is my fear?"

the answers will astound you

think about healing, spiritual growth and money spent on war

about bed lamps, fans and gratitude and joy

grace too

divine grace

always there when you need her

must sleep now

exhausted

headache

pain

I love my kids

HOM

my hounds

my reality with these guys is assured

truth, light, answers

just ask

its simple really

LIsa xx

10.51am- Incubator for Universal Spawn part two

In Gratitude for..........my Son Joshua and being the proudest mother at presentation day this morning.
Academic High Achievement in Film and Video .
Who would have thought ???
Me of course.


So, further to the post this morning- i now understand the the migraine and while I am not exactly saying THANK YOU for continual spewing and pain, i do have some insight.

When you go into Level Nine Light Body, your memory and re -actor seed crystals are re-awakened- this allows for a down loads of information to come through.

this is what i have been given

In March 1988 the whole planet and its matter were elevated to Level One Light body, which basically means that around this time, our etheric blueprints started to 'mutate' because they became 'open' to light. This affected our DNA structure and was the truest beginning of the real age of enlightenment and Ascension.

However, this process was not without flaws ( apparently) and so in April 1989, the whole planet and its matter ( us included) were elevated to Level Three lightbody and this activation caused an even more dramatic flooding of the system with light and much more mutation to the DNA strands.
( i am just writing this as it comes- don't shoot the messenger !).

Part of the DNA changes that occurred within us at that time were changes that impacted the physical body and the soul's response and reaction to it.

Children born around , after and in that period were born with the already 'mutated' ( changed/altered )DNA, so their reactions and responses to the physical body, were never going to be the same as ours- which were programmed according to the 'old' DNA.

We were programmed to honour the physical temple- these kids were born knowing it only as a hinderance to what is real.

I don't know if any of this makes any sense or not, and wont until i re- read it again at another time- however, i need to write it as it comes, or what is the point?

So, what is the point ?

Well OK, from what i have been given( sitting in the school hall surrounded by 12-16 year olds,) this could explain so much of the 'self abuse' that is obvious in our YOUTH today.

If you don't own something and love it then often you can be careless with it- could this explain the huge surge in branding, piercing and tattooing? Could this give some insight into drugs, drink, even self harm such as cutting, burning etc.
Could this explain why so many young un's' just dont seem to care.

Do our children often feel like an angry tenant in a rental property they hate , causing them to lash out or even 're-decorate' to make it ( the human body)more acceptable?


I don't know.

I do know however, that i am on shaky ground here and that i will have Jac on my ass about this, but to me, in some ways, it makes sense.

Children born as a higher concentration of light are more likely to find the density of our physical realm cumbersome and overwhelming, and so they move to reaction, i guess.

or opt out all together.

my thoughts
hhhhmmmmmm

8.38am- incubator for universal spawn

In Gratitude for..........witches and Diana having moderation privileges

dreaming about :
Dr's from past
and friends from now
who have children missing
presumed kidnapped
???????

Kids-
i think what most of us are feeling is the stark reality that these kids we birthed and nurtured, are not in fact OUR kids at all, and there fore to not fall under the categories we have for the other things in our lives that are ours.

Kids these days are accelerated- spiritually and mentally- things that don't bother us bother them and things that are not obvious to us are glaring obvious to them

they walk to a different beat and i have never felt more like an incubator for universal spawn in my life.

i know the parents of the blue stars where chosen carefully but i am talking about the bigger kids- the teen strangers- the offspring of MY generation.

i love my kids ( as you all know) but am the first to admit that they are 'different'- their actions and words are different- the depth of their knowledge astound, fascinates and frightens me.

Funny how in a world where we know that we 'own' nothing and how all attachments are illusionary- do we still feel we have some inner knowledge to the workings of our child's mind.

These are kids of the universe- star kids maybe, i don't know- I do know there is a whole tribe of angels whose main role is to over see the development of these kids and that the job is proving harder than ever imagined

I think the universe has created a Frankenstein, though not in a bad way, but certainly in a challenging way.

The uniqueness of these kids, if left untapped, becomes destructive- its as simple as that- for many of them, wearing this physical body is the equivalent to us wearing a hair suit on a 40degree day- unbearable.

Teen suicide is up ????
yep, no wonder- many souls just don't want to do the Ascension thing this time round and so they choose to go home.

Actually, that's why so many souls ( not just kids) are leaving the planet early- because choosing to ascend to light is a CHOICE and many people are choosing to do it at another time, in a another time frame, another place.
It is not failure, it is choice- many would rather do their Ascension process elsewhere or at
another time.

Ramblings i know- working with my 'seed' crystals which are situated above each eye brow ( in line with the pupils) and just under the hair line in line with my nose.

Teenstrangers are closer to light than we realise.
Their disrespect for the physical temple is obvious in the amount of abuse they put it through.
This happened on Atlantis too, i am told.

will find out more

smooch xx

10.41pm - Gary

In Gratitude for..........overachieving SOM

http://myspacetv.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=47766705


please go and watch this short film made by SOM - you will need to let it load firstbut it is so worth it- hysterical.

that's my boy

me x

7.36am- she died of arms up

In Gratitude for..........understanding, tolerance etc

i am so down
worst of all possible worst
migraine
starting Saturday, imploding Saturday night
all day yesterday and still today, i cant believe it
i am so down
pain does not aid depression
nor does being overwhelmed
and i have so much to do

am trying to live in the moment
and not project into the future too much
and by future i mean later today, tomorrow, this week
not next year, decade , centuary

tired of vomiting
of splitting head pain
over the right eye

feeling very down
almost depressed
unreliable
a failure

its been a hard few days
and i am sorry to my morning girls this morning

i know this is cleansing, growing stuff
but it hurts
and the fact that vomit is so close at hand
only makes it worse

my stuff
of course

of course

i would love to run away
but wont

head on
Ascension
mmmmmm

9.21am- dreams of freedom

In Gratitude for..........memories

I would imagine that most of us are dealing with the release of memories at the moment.
this happens in differing ways for each of us- for me , most of this releasing is happening during the sleep/dream process.

Memories and the past are the playground of the emotional body and how many of us know, that any emotional time spent there is destructive ( a lot of the time).

it is time to let it go.

So for me, its dreams and i am calling them the dreams of freedom, because that is what they are- a last chance to look at why certain situations are and then to let them go because my emotional energy is needed here.

dreams of old school friends and work mates- childhood memories and pets from the past- of old loves and old hates.......all that sort of stuff that has a 'hook' in us and can yank us out of our reality at any time.

the bottom line is, in truth, we are better for our past

our lives now are better because of our life then

did you know that the emotional body resides in the past
the mental body in the future
the spiritual body is across all dimensions
and the physical is NOW
right here and now

we are multi demensional beings in the truest sense, however, the PAST has served it purpose- it has got us to here and now- if we are still letting it rule us, then we are the idiots

same with the future- its pure mental body stuff which explains why so many of us have mental issues- we don't live here and now- we want to live there, in the future and we cant- we don't have the facilities to support it.

All we have to do is get through today- 24 and a bit hours- that's it

everything will fall into place

its simple really

Lisa x

11.57am- at this time and date and place ( automatic writing)

In Gratitude for..........writing

Before i start with this post i need to point out that when i use

the word "YOU" in the post i am not

referring to you or any one else in particular-

"YOU "in this post means NOT ME.

5/12/2008

it occurs to me that i have been holding back a lot of late in my writings and dealings with others

i am moving , see

moving from one level to another and the consequence of this is change and re-adjustment

I have been 'diagnosed' with Irritable bowel syndrome and Chronic fatigue syndrome but neither sit well with me.

I am too intelligent to accept these syndromes as my reality- too knowledgeable of the fact that both are labels for unexplainable by science and medicine happenings.

More sensible to me is Ascension and the processes it brings- tiredness , sensitivity etc.

Anything that is syndrome is not a perfect fit with me and I release it and the crippling effects it would have on me should i allow the label to stick.

A massive year is 2008 and i am finding myself ill at ease with many situations in my world, in my life.

I am in a good place but being challenged as is the way of growth.

There are things i want to say, to do and i find myself fighting with EGO and JUDGEMENT again- i fear that fight is never over- it just arises every now and then to push you In to the next level of growth.

This is what i think.

I am so PISSED with so many at the moment but KNOW, really know, that these issues are mine.

I want to yell and scream at certain people and about certain situations, but i wont.

I want to comment, but wont- its not my path nor my place and the truest lesson is that I think- to let others and their opinions be just that.

Struggling with truth alot I am , which is why so much of my writing has been superficial.

it wont stay that way forever, i know, but i abhor it- my inability to express the truth as i see it- I experience this as weakness on my part, where in truth, i know that shutting up takes the strength.

Don't undermine me

I am still real, authentic, i just need to push past fear.

A friend told me recently that she feels the Cottage is 'closing', 'winding down'

Its NOT and I don't agree

however i am the first to acknowledge that the parameters have changed- that the concept has moved.

You see, in the beginning, 'I' used to want you there- it was so important to ME- I wanted you to share my dream.

This has changed in so much as that now i want you TO WANT to be there or just don't be.

Its so simple.

I have much to offer- My Cottage has much to offer, but the onus is upon YOU not ME- you have to want the level of truth i can give or else we are all wasting our time.

This is the change that we are all feeling- the Cottage before was 'resting place' and i wanted to nurture you, spoon feed you your spiritual journey- which meant dealing with YOUR stuff and participating in your games.

This is the change- no more do i or will I do this.

You have to want to be there.

You have to want the growth.

You have to be open to truth.

See,

this is where i fight with ego and judgement, but, I am winning- i really am.

I am living my expression ad fully expect you to do the same.

Part of my expression is learning that i have no right to be upset when you don't want what i want BUT also understanding that it works both ways.

I don't want what you want.

Yes, the Cottage has changed, it mirrors my growth

but no, it will not end.

NEVER.

I am committed fully to it and to those of you who want to be there, who want to share in this dream.

I no longer cry over personalities that come and go- over whispered words, snide remarks- we have moved past that, into a zone more fitting for growth.

Love is the key because it brings with it tolerance, respect and acceptance.

You do not owe me anything- nor do i owe you anything.

You are free to leave, as am I.

I will support you if you support yourself and that is hard i guess for many.

I can give you tools to change your life but only you can use them.

So yes, i look forward to 2009 and all that will be achieved there by us at the Cottage- individually and collectively.

it is important that we all adjust to the planetary energies of now.

most of it is to do with questioning and with being truthful about the answers.

I struggle with this too

because I am, like you are, living a life that is the product of our choices.

Its not easy to admit that our choices were unwise- Ego, see.

BUT

they are our choices none the less.

We are where we put ourselves on the chess board of life ( to get poetic)

The blessing of free will.

I am arguing about labels with me.

I don't want to be labelled- labels cause restriction and hamper the growth process.

Alot of who I am and what i do centres on me being a WITCH and yet i am so much more, or more accurately, being a witch is so much more than what many would have you believe.

I am not FLUFFY

nor is the Cottage

We are real, authentic and the version of Witch we teach is strong, real and responsible for her own growth.

If you want someone to direct your spiritual growth, I AM NOT FOR YOU. There are wonderful people and places that are , and i can recommend them for you should you wish. to my way of thinking the age of the GURU has ended, just has the place of structured religion.

WE are all the connection we need to the Divine, but it can take work to access it.

If you are prepared to work, i can help but if not- it merely means you are a different level to me and there are wonderful places i would recommend you go to study and learn.

just don't be told what to think.

I wont dress up and wear wings and make light of the journey- that is not me.

LIFE is all the initiations and trials we require when it comes to learning and growth.

So yes, I am in truth- mainly with myself at the moment but understanding the ripple effect it will cause.

I live in complete faith that I am, and MY WORK is, being 100% guided and that that guidance is taking me to change and growth.

Some will see my change, my truth, as negative and already the whispers begin.

i ask you though- is that me or you ?

I am real and YES i am working with it

It is bringing changes to me and mine- moreover, it is the change to you i am letting go of.

Don't feel you are doing me a favour by participating in my life, in the life of my cottage because quite frankly, that is not the truth for any of us.

I have something to give, to share, to teach.

If you want to learn it, i am here 100% for you

if not, you can only expect from me in return, the equal to what you give.

if your learning with me is low priority in your life, my teaching with you will be low priority in my life.

so you see now why my posts have been light of late- because growth is all about working through the minutea until it becomes clear- until SPIRIT provides an answer.

i am not your answer

you are your answer

I can assist but you must do it yourself

We are all ascending so fast

Honour yourself by acknowledging how authentic are the things you say and do

Honour yourself by being who you are in truth with love

Honour your place on the path by accepting that your choices are exactly that

Don't blame or shirk responsibility, we are all doing the same Ascension trip.

If i have value in your life, then keep me there- if i don't, let me go.

Its simple really.

9.36am- a site to see

In Gratitude for.......... wonderful, inspiring, art

go take a look- the rest of the website is worth viewing as well

http://www.zakairan.com/ProductsDivineLightImages/DivineLightImages.htm

8.43am - Me Me

In Gratitude for..........knowing that the emotional body lives in the past and the the mental body lives in the future, which is why we all have so much trouble living in the NOW

1. 5 names you go by
Lisa
Lil
Raihn
That Friggin Bitch
Mother Bear

2.Three Things you are wearing right now
purple sports bra and long white pants

3.Two things you want very badly at the moment
a maid and world peace

4. people that will probably fill this out
no one that I know

5. 2 Things you did last night
christmas shopping and watched sex in the city


6. 2 Things you ate today
its early !- my mental patient drugs and half a cup of morning brew

7.Two people you last talked to on the phone
Matthew
Joshua

8.Two things you are going to do tomorrow
cook tea for my Rose Cottage committee
christmas shopping

9.Two of the longest car drives you have had
anytime where i am vomiting
anytime when i am not driving

10.Two of your favorite beverages
champagne ( i love it- it hates me)
morning brew
water
lemon lime and bitters

11.Two sports you watch on TV
you must confuse me with someone who has time


12.Three people you have on Speed Dial
dont use it


13.Five items in your wardrobe you never wear

dress i met marc in
dress i married marc in
clothes dad bought back from Italy for me
my' rivers' pointy shoes
maternity clothes ( though i am tempted)

14. The last 3 books you read
what is lightbody ?
the child queen
the high queen

15. Three weird OCD tendencies you have

no radio on at night
no lights on during the day
wash feet before going to bed

16. Five presents you got from Santa as a kid
was very spoilt- constantly

17. Three most visited bookmarks
blogs
email
newcastle wicca

18. Two items on your wishlist for Christmas
sex in the city box set
understanding and growth


19. Five Things you can see right now

empty coffee cup
mess
fruti and nuts
stomach rolls of fat
my weblog

20. 5 things on your fridge

picture of Marc
how to cure a hangover spell
rust
magnets with important phone numbers
quirky sign that explains why the house is a mess

21. Two items you own more than 10 of

Jackson Browne CD's
journals

8.55am- the Queen's Grief

In Gratitude for..........Trev and Ruby

My guides woke me this morning with the words 'the Queen's Grief'
I dont know what it means- at first i thought it was a book title i am suppose to read or write, but then i started getting flashes of the British Royal Family and i am wondering just what it is all about.

'the Queen's grief' would suggest what ?

Is it William?

who knows........i am sure we will all find out shortly

i know that 'the queen' could relate to a lot of things, but in this case, it doesnt.
They are talking England- Britain- the Monarchy- William- Anne- Charles etc

Please let me know if you hear anything..........

i am lightbody nine
and its not as bad as lightbody eight

9.36am- Ruth and Ariel, Hillary and ME

In Gratitude for..........days off

I have come to accept that the darkest of days prelude often the more spiritual of my days- there is light after the dark so to speak, and so i am facing the dark clouds of today with a bit of bravado about actually knowing that sometime in the next couple of days i will be given divine guidance of a high level.

the whole light body theory has me intrigued and i recommend you read the book- click here
- that i am reading- it is channelled work and in the truest sense of channelling it can at times be a bit Hodge-podge, but that is just the way it comes through.

I would also recommend that you do some research on Ruth Montgomery - there are many wonderful links to her and i do believe the time has come to relearn some of the stuff she foretold. Cheryl in my Tuesday YAAD group had put to gether some wonderful information on her yesterday and this has made me realise how accurate and still viable RUTH is today.

I am banging my head against a brick wall with angels, and hoping Kathleen will soon sort me out.
URIEL/ARIEL - the same or not ?
it depends on who you read- some see URIEL as male energy and ARIEL as female, others see them just spelling mistakes of the other- it depends on who you read- does anyone have any personal experience of these energies that may enlighten me.

My heart is in bliss for Heidi who has taken the 'leap of faith' and how much i admire her strength and how proud i am of her acceptance.

Strangely enough my Goddess card for the day is 'leap of faith'

We are living in charmed times- A BLACK president, a FEMALE secretary of state ( which by the way is an excellent choice Barack)

Yes, the world is angry and desperate but it is also a source of delight and wonderment.

My heart goes out today to those with children in pain- it is hard not to feel affected when another parent is experiencing your worst nightmare. I am sending love and thinking of you.

Walking upon the beach- this is the place for me to find solace today- i have started collecting 'beach glass' ( thank You to OCT) as i have a major project underway for the Cottage five year Fanniversary next July.

and also, my personal thoughts on religion ?
outdated and dying- ending its cycle- the world card- all the good and all the bad it has been capable of has been played out- we are now mopping up.
religion =structure and we are moving into a world where that kind of structure is no longer needed.
I fear those who call themselves guru for that term in itself is ego and outdated. YOU don't need ME ( or ANYONE ELSE) to get to the GODHEAD- YOU are already a part of it- sometimes we separate but we always are connected.

I can teach you many things but in return, you can teach me too; never forget the balance- it is where organised religion went so wrong ( IMO) in that it chose to 'tell' rather than 'ask'.

We are all MASTERS.
Some experiencing challenge for sure and some experiencing light but MASTERS all the same.

so, yes today the raihn brain is in overdrive and i will spend alot of time in reflection- i want to know when i plugged into the Karmic council and why and i want to know why URIEL is messing with my mind.

I want to know why goats milk cheese is foul and yet with enough chardonnay is palatable.

I need to know that YOU know i cant fix you but that doesn't mean i don't love you, care for you.

Dark clouds.
Black dog.

Change- a huge horizontal line across the middle of Australia- like we are being 'folded' by the powers that be- what does it mean ?
At least i see rain- lots of it- and droughts being broken.
A period of lushness.
But the 'fold'? the line? right across our middle - from WEST to EAST coast- what does it mean ?

amorist
me xx

8.39am- the boy next door

In Gratitude for..........my own bed

are blogs self obsessive?

dreams are vibrant and full of meaning i guess, even though i am the first to admit that the meaning is always a bit over the place and never really straight forward.

basically, for me, my recent dreams are a sort of purging of past stuff and so i find i dream about my childhood alot.

in particular is the boy i lived next door to from the ages of 9-18- he was, i guess , my first love , and even though he certainly didn't feel the same way- he has made a marked impression on my life and on my dreams , all of my adult life.

I don't know.

Life calls while i ponder the ghost of times past and yet, in truth, i really do know that IT JUST DOESN'T MATTER- we are more than ever living in the NOW which is why so many of us have partial memory loss- the POWERS THAT BE thought that we spent too much time reflecting on what was instead of living in what is.

TODAY, this day, is IT.
Right now.

i am reading a book about light bodies and the Ascension process- I believe myself to be at light body nine ( there is LB 3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12)- it is fascinating and describes everything about life right now, for me.

i will find out some details to share

Also, the guides are on high alert regarding the USA- i keep getting pointed towards the east coast and feelings of natural occurrence loom- they keep telling me to remember the numerology of this year ( 2+0+0+8=10=1) and that the completion and beginning of cycles are intertwined and one will often blur with the other.

A weekend with the muggles gives you head space and clarity but also extreme GRATITUDE for the fact that i live in a world that is at least aware of judgement and personal responsibility- and that i can 'see' the plan and don't wake each day thinking ' what is all this for?'

America and boys-next- door

I am wearing husbands shorts
SOM is 15
and DOM spoils the hounds while we are away

BTW
getting to the 'bottom' of Trev for the Autumn girls
apparently during my week away, DOM introduced the hounds to a vegie diet ( ? )
What my poor Autumn's smelt last night was tuna and red kidney beans after being through the pee-oodle processing plant..................
not exactly roses.............


sorry..................snoff xx


smooch xx

12.56pm- home

In Gratitude for..........holidays with muggles

am home
will get around to emails
later
combined class tonight for Autumns
a special surprise project

India.
it was only a week or so ago my guides told me there would be massive trouble in India
im sure i blogged it
am scared and fascinated

but need to do washing and nap
will blog soon
and email

me xxx
who for obvious reasons cannot announce on her blog when she is going to be away for a week..........